Kaimon: shattered love

I do care about you

Authors note: ok so i am sorry that i have been.. uh really unactive. it's just all the things in my own personal life that are stressing me out. i can't really defend myself, sorry guys.
-me

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Damon's pov:

What am i supposed to do? All my problems would die with him, but is it really worth it? No. Of course it's not worth it. I care about him. Or do i? Why would i? My thoughts are really messed up, but i just can't let him die. I bite my wrist and placed it to kai's lips. He didn't swallow the blood, am i too late? No, this can't happen like this. It's not right! i opened his mouth and "opened" his throath so he had to drink some of my blood. That's all I can do, now i have to wait.

Kai's pov:

My head hurts. Oww, like really. Wait- am i alive? Did damon really save me? I slowly opened my eyes, just to see Damon walking around and around, looking stressed. My vision was blurred when i tried to get up. Damon noticed that and locked his eyes to me. He walked toward me with very worried face on. He noticed that i couldn't stand up and forced me to sit on the couch. "What happened?" he asked, with very angry but sad tone in his voice. I looked down to the floor, which was dirty of my blood. Great. First i'm going to die to help others, but then i became they're problem.

Damon's pov:

Kai didn't look to my eyes, or answer to the queston i asked. I gripped his chin and forced him to look into my eyes, even though he protested a little. "What happened?" i asked again, with my voice full of urge to know. "You know what happened" he answered quietly, trying to get out of my hold. I didn't let him, not before he tells me. "But why?" i simply asked him, but i heard my voice breaking in the last word. i fixed it with a cough, which was kinda obvious. "It doesn’t matter, okey? everything is alright, sorry that i bothered you." Kai said sounding exhausted. He stood up, and start walking to the front door. I vamp speeded and blocked his way. "You know that i can compell you, right?" i said, sending him a hint of that he has to answer to my questons.

Kai's pov:

Damon sounded very stubborn, and finally i nodded. He understood that i was starting to talk, and walked past me, to the living room. i followed him and sat to the couch, so i faced him. "What do you want to know so badly?" i asked. "For example, why you tried to kill yourself?" he said with annoyingly serious sarcasm in his voice, giving me his 'duh' look. "Because my life doesn’t matter." i sighted. he looked me curiously and i contiuned. "I'm just waste of space. i only wanted to get out of the prison world, so i could finally feel the peace of death. i was forced to live all alone for 18 years, without any escape, now that i'm free, i would love to have the opportiny to put myself out of my misery! The worst part is that i was ready to die a long before i even got sented away, i was just a child back then!" i told him, starting quietly, but raising my voice in every word and ending up yelling.

Damon's pov:

I listened his every word, shocked. Why i always thought that he was just some psycho who got sented away by his family. i don't know what to say. he is clearly broken, maybe even shattered. how can i help him? "You are not waste of space. Your life also matters, okey? "  i said with my softest voice. "To who? Who cares? What do you even care?" he argued back. "To me! I care!" i yelled back at him, not even realizing what i just said. "No you don't. it's okey. you don't have to say that just because you feel responsible of it.." kai answered to me mostly mumbling, but thanks to my vampire hearing i understood him. I grapped his arms carefully to mine, and noticed how he finally looked into my eyes. He has such a beautiful eyes, i don't understand why he would ever hurt himself on purpose. "i do care about you. really. don't you ever hurt yourself again, i'm asking you." i begged him. He opened his and was about to say something, but then Stefan came inside the house. Gladly he wasn't with Elena or Caroline, or thank god with Bonnie! He walked in the living room and noticed the blood every where. i can't even imagine what he is thinking. "What is going on here.?" he asked confused. Before i answered i suddently realized that i was still holding Kai's hands. Kai probably realized it too, and stood up awkwardly. He then did his sarcastic wave-thing and left to the upstairs, leaving me alone to face my really confused brother. I heard when he opened shower, which means that i could (or have) now talk with Stefan. How lovely.