Kaimon: shattered love

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heyy! hope yall are ok. i couldn't update last week, because of school etc. and not like that, this story has only 10 views so i guess that no one has rly waited this either. but no, it's fine i get it. i just love writing heheh

~me

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kai's pov:

in the same second damon asked about my sleeves i felt these horrible chills on the back of my back. but for reflex, i answered the same thing as always, i don't even know why. what would he do about it? why would he do something about it? he doesn’t care. and neither do i. ok, he looks nice.. ok he looks AMAZING, but still. i am a sociopath, i don't care about people. i sat on the couch, looking damon while he was pouring bourbon on his glass. he saw that i was staring and gave me these weird eyes. i just shook my head and he laughed. "You good?" he asked with sarcastic voice, so i guess that he don't want the real answer. i mumbled something and he headed to kitchen.

damon's pov:

i went to the kitchen, still head full of questons. why didn't i just ask them? it's not that hard. or atleast it shouldn't be. this is weird. i made some pancakes, just like is did in the prison world for over 4 months. what should i do about kai? i can't baby sit him 24/7. but i was the one who let him out, so i owe that to Bon. kai shotted her with an arrow! bonnie is gonna be so mad when i tell her what happened. or.. why would i tell? it's not her business, just one night stand. right? again these same thoughs run inside my head and i can't help with them. it's exhausting. "what are you doing" i heard kai's words behind me. i jumped a little because i wasn't expecting him to come. "wow- oh sorry i didn-" kai said before i stopped with a funny stare and giggle. he just looked me and gave this sarcastic sight, which gave me butterflies. really, damon. bitterflies? there was comfortable silence in the room, but i broke it by saying "let's go eat, shall we?" he smile and nodden, which looked kinda real this time.

*while later*

kai's pov:

i finished my food, and i felt horrible. i don't even know why. i just hate everything about me. it making me uncomfortable, which is making me even more uncomfortable because i am at Damon's house, eating his food and bothering him. why am i like this? ughh. "i have to go meet one bennett witch today, and i'm pretty sure that Bon Bon doesn’t want to see you.. can you wait inside this house or can you act like a non-sociopath if you go out?" damon asked, without noticing my mental pain. i just nodded, again. he looked me with a weird face and asked "so, are you leaving out or stay here?" that was the moment i realized that he was talking to me. i didn't really listen him, because i was so deep on my own thoughts. "i stay here" i said quietly, avoiding his eyes. why am i so awkward? he nodded this time with a smile. soon enough he was gone, and i was all alone, with my thoughts. again. i don't have anything to do, i don't own a phone, because i literally came back from the 1994 prison world, and of course i don't have money or time to go buy one. i also promised that i won't go out, and i don't want to get killed my damon because he thinks that i'm going on a killing spree. i was used to be without anything to do, but this was different. it's like endless misery, unlike back there. i didn't really care about anything when i was there. but now i feel.. and i also know only one way to escape it. i headed to the bathroom, grabbing a knife from kitchen with me. i sat down, and let the blade do it's magic.

damon's pov:

i went to bonnie's house, just like we planned. she is my best friend, after all we've been trough. "how are things with kai?" she asked immediately. "not much, he's at the boarding house at this moment." i lied with a little smirk on my face. "what? you left him there alone? he is insane, damon!" she half-yelled me worry on her face. "everything is under control, Bon. i make sure that he doesn’t kill anyone, and then.." i started, but silent fulled the room fast. "then what? damon you know that i trust you, but i don't trust him. you are the one who set him free, so now you have to do something about this." bonnie said with a little understanding smile on her face. i couldn't be angry to her, even though she was a little rude." but what am i supposed to do, Bon Bon? for real, i don't know" i said, laying my face in my hands. "i don't either. i think that you have to kill him, or he'll kill you.." she said with a sad smile on her lips. "no. i don't just go and kill him" i said without hesitation. "in some point he will get that you can't just let him go. and k  that moment, he'll siphon you to death. i'm sorry but it's true" she said quietly, avoiding my eyes. she probably knew that i cared about him in some level, which was hella scary. and why is everyone avoiding my eyes today? it's annoying. "i know what to do" i said breaking the silent that has filled whole room. she nodded, and i gave her a kiss on her forehead. with that i left, knowing that i care about kai, but i don't really have any other opinions left. if i don't do something about this, he will kill me, and probably bonnie and stefan too. and i don't want that.

kai's pov:

i think that i messed up real bad. the blade slipped a little too far under my skin, and now i'm bleeding constantly and non-stop. i have no idea when damon is coming back. basically my whole hands are full of little cuts and bruises, and my right wrist has a big and deep cut. fantastic. i tied a tourniquet, so bleeding stopped a little. what now? i'm pretty sure that if i don't get help, i'll die slowly bleeding. i can't leave this house, or i'm dead anyways. i can't either ask damon's blood, because then all the physical pain would be gone. and if it's gone, i'm again all alone with my mental pain. maybe i'll just wait and die? it would actually be a lot easier to everyone. i cleaned up and sat down on couch. my eyes got heavier every minutes, and breathing was harder. i was still awake, and i know that passing out, would take atleast 30 minutes. maybe i'll just watch tv and die as close as happy thank i just can? i opened tv, and Simpsons was playing. i watched it for a moment, noticing that the tourniquet i tied, was now basically a bloody peace of fabric. out of nowhere damon opened the door, and i closed the tv, hiding my hand under my jacket which i putted on just a few minutes before that.

Damon's pov:

i saw kai sitting on the couch, with a very scared face. did he know that i was going to kill him? do i have to kill him? i don't want to, but i can't risk the lives of the most important people to me. i stepped closer to him and smelled blood. really, again? "who did you kill this time" i asked calmly but also in a rude way. he didn't answer anything, he just mumbled something. "You know that i can literally smell the fresh blood. i gave you one rule. do NOT kill or hurt anyone." i yelled at him. "i didn't kill anyone.. " he said, standing up, hand behind his back. what did he hide there? weapon? i ripped his hand violently to my hand, and noticed that he was covered in his own blood. "w- what happened" i asked him with a very worried face. "it doesn’t matter" he snapped and tried to get off of my hands. i was still holding on his right hand on my hands. i wrapped his sleeve up, seeing that it's full of cuts. i knew exactly how they came here. i saw his eyes watering. "what have you done?" i asked, feeling horrible. in the same minute he passed out in my hands. what am i supposed to do? let him die and get away from all of my problems or give him my blood? i don't have any time to think, he'll die in minutes.