Colour Coded

~ Chapter 1~

1.

(CHARLOTTE CARDIN - ANYONE WHO LOVES ME🦋)

Safe.

That's what I felt once I got to the parking lot. I pulled my key out of the ignition and placed it in the pocket of my hoodie. My source of light were just the street lights. I walked in through the opened gates of the cemetery and started my journey towards the graves.

I sat on dad's grave and traced my finger on mom's a single tear fell from my eyes and down my cheek. I wiped my face and looked down at my feet.

"Hey guys...."

I got up and dusted the dirt of my bottom. I walked back to my car and drove away. Away from all the pain and sorrow, the guilt in me was eating my guts. I parked my car in front of my house and got out. The lights inside were all off except for one.

I opened the front door and took my shoes of. "I'm home!" I announced and locked the door. The light sound of his footsteps were heard and I smiled when he wrapped his short arms around my waist. I chuckled and let out a small breathe.

"I missed you." He said, letting go of me enabling me to turn around to face him. "I missed you to kiddo" I ruffled his Raven coloured hair and bent down to kiss his forehead.

He took my hand in his and pulled me towards the kitchen. I stared at him in confusion "Didn't you eat anything at their place?" He shrugged his shoulders and looked away.

I sighed and carried my six year old brother who just told me he hadn't had anything to eat in the past 2hours. I placed him on the kitchen island and turned towards the fridge. I took out all the things I needed and got to work.

After clearing up our plates, I took him to his bedroom and watched him in silence as he brushed his teeth. I tucked him in and kissed him goodnight.
I closed the door and walked to my room. I turned on the light and went into the bathroom.

I stared at the spitting image of her. My mother, I stared at her grey eyes, her button nose and her plump pink lips. His skin tan and black raven hair.

I had my mother's curves, in every place. I stripped out of my attire and walked into the shower. After my bath, I was in my room in my PJs and under the sheets.

Freedom.

It wasn't a breathe of fresh air. It was a breathe of fear,stress, anxiety, depression, and sadness. I had only one priority and if it were to be taken away from me, I would have nothing left.

I closed my eyes and thought of my baby brother. I snifflled and let the darkness consume me.

Screaming.

I looked over at the black box that sat on my bedside drawer.

4:38 am

The screaming continued.
I jolted up and run to my brothers room. I opened the door and my heart sank at his state. He was shaking, screaming and scratching around. His tears were what hurt most.

I run to his side and held him like it was the last I'd get to see of him. "It's okay calm down please. I'm here you can wake up" I run my hand through his hair lightly, he held onto my top and leaned more into me. He opened his eyes and then started breathing heavily.

I reached over to his nightstand and grabbed his glass of water "Here, just take little sips" he took the glass from my hand and downed the whole thing. He gave it to me and grabbed my top again

"Promise me Li, promise that you won't leave me ever, ever never ever." He murmured into my top. I kissed the top of his head and nodded.

"Never"

"You wanna say?" He shook his head and held me tighter.

"Daddy did it to mummy again and then mummy fell down and mummy didn't wake up when I called her. Li, what happend to mummy and daddy?
Why were they shouting?" I closed my eyes and clenched my jaw in anger. I allowed my tears to fall.

The child I was holding just had a nightmare of what his family was like yet he remembered nothing. I on the other hand, remembered what happened like it was yesterday.

It was probably my fault that we were living alone. Without people to call parents, maybe it was my fault that they were no more, that they were buried 6ft under ground.

"It was just a bad dream kiddo. Don't worry about anything okay. You wanna spend the night with me?" He nodded his head and released his grip on my top. Before I could even blink he was out of his home. I cleaned my tears and followed behind him.

I entered my room and laid beside him. "Are you ready for tomorrow Li?" I looked over at him and shrugged.

Was I ready to go back to work?

No

Did I have a choice?

No

Guilt

When the memories start to fade, maybe I would be able to forgive myself for my mistakes.

The light in the red room shone above her head. He was staring with zero emotions. She lowered her head and stared at the ground. The people around her started laughing. The people around him we're whispered, murmuring his sins and laughing at her failure. Both didn't bother to utter a word for they knew that nothing could be done.

She covered her mouth with her hand and watched as he took her everything, her world. He just watched as they kept whispering.

They both stared in pain as the world rejected their existence.

They might have been the same.
Maybe they were meant to be, maybe not. Either way, they are both colour coded.

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~Nicole💜🦋✨