Locked Off [SeungminXHyunjin]

twenty one

SEUNGMIN

"I forgot to asked you yesterday if you see my bracelet?" I asked.

"Oh! The silver? It's on my study table. Just get it later." He said as he gives me a cup of coffee. "Anyway you wake up early today." He added.

"Me? No you! You wake up so early. It's just 7am." I said.

"Ah- that's right I couldn't stop myself from pukin- I mean I couldn't- I just want to get some coffee today since it's rainy." I confusely looked at him because he looks like he's going to panic.

"You okay? You looks pale." I said.

"Me? I-Im always like t-this."

"Is there any medicine for that? I mean lately you've been looking pale. Is it still normal? Why don't you get some check up to make sure. You're making me worry and worry and worry. Day and night I'm always worried." I said but he just smiled and nodded at me.

"I'm okay, don't think too much."

"Make sure that you always takes care of yourself."

"Tss I'm not a child anymore. I can handle myself. You're the one who needs to take care."

"Me? I'm also not a child anymore." I said and sip some coffee.

"But you're my baby..." He said as he sits down in the table infront of me.

"I'm what?" I asked and look up at him. Hyunjin quickly lift my head a little higher and kiss me?

B1TCH HE KISSED ME!!

"Is it too quick?" I slowly nodded. Damn I'm so pazzled! Why is he being like this? It's too early!

"Why are you so confuse?" He said as he chuckled.

"I-it's too fast..." I said.

"It's just a peck. Why? How long do you want to kiss me?"

"What?" I confusely asked.

"You said the kiss was too fast then let's make it longer!" He damandingly said.

"Eh? Are really going to fli-" I didn't finish what I'm saying when he quickly kiss me again.

Damn! He's lips is just so soft. I couldn't help but to kiss him back. Damn it! 

"I'm done, you can now open your eyes." Hyunjin whispered. I feel that Hyunjin starts to walk towards the chair infront of me.

I'm so embarrassed! I quickly cover my face using my hand. Damn!

"Why?" He asked.

"D-do you really need to kiss me? This early!?"

"I am not the only one guilty of the kiss we have worked with. You contributed too. I kissed you, you kissed me. Why is that?" He sarcastically said.

"Tss enough..."

"I-I have something to tell y-you." He said.

"What?" He confusely look around and smiled at me.

"I-I love you." He said as ge chuckled.

"Why is that? I don't know how to react." I said because that's not the thing I want to hear.

"It's not a phrase needed to be reciprocated. I just want to tell you bacause that's how I feel..."

"Y-you're weird..." Hyunjin just shrugged and smiled at me.

How I wish I could stay here a little more longer. I- I want to be on his side, I want to be with him. I- I want him...

"Why are you crying? You look ugly." Hyunjin said when he noticed that I teared up.

"Tss whatever. I'll just get my bracelet." I said as I walk upstair.

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HYUNJIN

"Where's Seungmin?" Changbin asked as they sit down infront of me.

"He just get his bracelet. Anyway where's Jisung?" I asked.

"He went in the club last night and he hasn't go home yet." Felix said.

"Have you told Seungmin?" Changbin said.

"Told what?" Felix confusely said.

"Nothing."

"HOLY SH1T!!" I said as I remember that the envelope was in the my study table.

I quickly run upstairs, but I stop when Seungmin is sitting on the floor while all the papers are around him, he's reading it one by one.

Damn I should just give the bracelet to him!! Wrong move Hyunjin...

"S-Seungmin..."

"What the fvck is this?!" Seungmin said as his eyes starts to tear up. I smiled at him as I walk towards him and starts to get the papers in the floor.

"Answer me..." I smiled at him as I reach the peper in his hand. I set aside everything and sit down infront of him while holding his hand.

I look at Changbin who is in the door he just nood and smiled at me and quickly grab Felix as both of them left us.

Maybe this is the time for me to tell you, Seungmin,

This is such wrong timing but- okay.

"Hyunjin..." Seungmin said as he shake my hand. "Tell me..."

"It was last year when I found out that I have pancreatic cancer."

"LAST YEAR?!"

"Calm down."

"Are you being serious right now?! How can I calm down?! You should go for treatment!"

"How I wish treatment can heal me. But it's too late. When I go to hospital last year my condition is already critical, pancreatic cancer has no symptoms so I never realize that I already have one. The doctor said we can do operation but the chances is gonna be fifty-fifty, so I refuse to do the operation because I don't know what will happened, the doctors also said that my body isn't that strong so it's gonna be hard for my body to survive the operation. And also I want t-to see you. I want to find you- but everything went gloomy when my dad decided to make a revenge against your dad. And me- I want to do the same but you is the only exception. And yes, I actually don't have a plan to tell you about this. I'm sorry" I said as I look down because I can feel that my eyes starting to teared up.

"And you're drinking alcohol and taking cigarretes? How dare you?!"

"I don't have a reason to live, even if you're there it's not enough, because I know that you're just here temporarily and I don't want you to worry, if there's one thing I want that is you- I mean I want you to take care of your mother. I may need you but trust me- your mom needs you the most. You can lose everything but not your mom. You can afford lossing me but not your mom. Please Seungmin, I don't want you to stay here just because I have this fvcking malady. I just want to die in peace without you knowing about it." I said and smiled at him.

"H-how can you pretend that you're okay? H-how can y-you smile like that? Hyunjin you're sick! How can you calm down?!"

"I already accept my path. I already accept everything. I'm just waiting for myself to passed by." I said.

Do I already accept this? Or I just don't want to show them the weak side of me? It doesn't matter, I know and I can confirm it. I'm scared.

Seungmin, I'm scared...

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A/N

I don't know if there's still some people who's reading this. But I think I won't update for awhile due to school works. I'm sorry...

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