Let's Stop!

Chapter 1: Let's Stop

They were just done with the tour but currently staying still in their last city. There's a reason why Chenle made sure that he and Jisung will have to be roommates in the hotel for this one. He wanted to tell him something. It had been bothering him for a long time now and it has to be now or never.

Both of them are now sitting on their beds ready for their flight, all dressed up and just waiting for the other members. Chenle has been planning to talk to him all night long and yet he wasn't able to do so because of nervousness.

"It has to be now Chenle, you've got no time!"

He took a deep breath before he began.

"Jisung?"

The younger looked up from his phone and seeing the look on Chenle's face he knew the older is going to say something serious. He hummed a response, putting the phone aside, slipping it in his pocket.

Chenle did his best too look at Jisung,
"Jisung I'm tired."

The younger can only look at his bestfriend in confusion.

"I've been wanting to tell you this for so long but I was scared on how you will react." He continued.

Closing his eyes he spoke the words he've been bottling up for too long to Jisung.
"I'm tired of being always with you Jisung. The projects, the activities, everything. I- I wanted to be just Chenle from now on. I don't want to be always paying attention to our closeness anymore and... and be afraid of what our fans will say. I want to be recognized Jisung and do projects without being associated with you beyond the group that we have."

Jisung froze at the words that is coming out from Chenle. He always thought that the things he did made Chenle happy and that the more they are together the more Chenle had fun.

"A-are you tired of always picking up after me? Th-That there are lot of things I'm dumb about?"
His fingers fiddled around each other not knowing what to do.

Chenle noticed the pain in Jisung's tone but he has no choice but to be honest. How else will he convince the younger that this is what he wants.

"Maybe..."

There he answered. "At least it's not an outright yes." He convinced himself not to mind how Jisung might be feeling right now.

"A-ah... I see."
Jisung swallowed the tears, the pain, the heaviness in his chest, afraid that he might chase Chenle further away.

"S-so what do you want to do now Chenle-yah." His lips trembled as he forced himself to smile. He wanted to disappear right now too scared of what Chenle might say.

"I want the next episode of 'Chenji's This and That' to be our last. I want to do more independent shows from now on."

Jisung rose to his feet at this, hands clenching around the handle of his luggage. Somehow, he wanted to run but he stood his ground eyes on the door because he cannot look at Chenle anymore.

Biting his lips to stop himself from shaking he managed to still talk.

"Ok, if that's what you want."

He nodded not because he agrees on what his one and only bestfriend in the whole world is saying. He nodded trying to convince himself that Chenle's happiness comes first.

"What do you want to do for our last episode then?"

"Last"
He was not ready to utter those words.

"Jisung-ah how can you still put me first after I said all that."
"I'll think about it." Those are the only thing Chenle could answer.

"Y-yeah just text me when you come up with an idea. I-I'll go for now. I remembered I need to tell Jaemin something."
He turned his back from Chenle. Gripping his luggage as he took slow steps to the door, tears brimmed unable to contain them anymore.

When they arrived at the dorms Jisung got a better hold of his emotions.
Lying on the bed, he reminisced all the things Chenle and him had been through. That's when it hit him, there was one thing Chenle has been always disappointed about.
He grabbed his phone and typed.

To Chenle:
Hi, I know I've said that you'll decide what we're going to do for 'Chenji's This and That' but I do have one last thing I wanted to do with you.

I- I want us to go back to Shanghai and ride all the rides in that same amusement park.

"Just as how it's supposed to be in your dream."

To Jisung:

Sure! Afterall, didn't we once said that the last episode will be in Shanghai?
Haha Great idea!

And that's what they did. The whole time they were there, Jisung went with Chenle in all the rides the older wanted to try.
Jisung screamed at the top of his lungs, he shouted until he was hoarse, until he can feel his vocal cords gave out.

By the time they were done with the last one, they hopped off the chairs and went to the side.

They turned off the camera for now and Chenle grabbed the crouching younger to ask him how was the entire experience.
He stopped dead in his hold around the younger's shoulders.
Jisung is sobbing.
Chenle's eyes landed on the fists pounding on the hard chest of the taller.
He could see how the younger screamed soundlessly as tears kept falling down to the ground.

"I told you I would cry, woudn't I? It was freaking scary."
The taller wiped his tears with his sleeves, giving Chenle a small smile.

"I realized that the words you spoke to me that day was the most scared I've ever been."

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Thoughts are in italic.