My Diary

September/30/2020

Yo, it's been awhile, I'm writing a new story, I'm now in my second  year of high school, no longer a freshman. Corona sucks, I miss all my friends, I found and lost alot of partners, but 1 has always stayed Kai, I love them so much, but we are kinda on a break on the moment. I ended up scratching at my skin till it bleeds cause of stress and sadness, I'm hurting so much but I'm trying so hard to continue smiling, for them, my partners. I used to say Kai made me weak and feel things, but now I realize they made me stronger. I got two guinea pigs and a chameleon, still have the bearded dragon, cat, and dog. I seem to get really dizzy every time I stand up. I'm currently up at 12 am writing about my feelings to a stupid book and random strangers that make me feel happy cause they actually listen. I want hugs so much rn, great now I'm crying... it's kinda funny, I wouldn't be crying if Kai never came into my life, but I love feeling and I love them. I'm gonna get a new phone soon, this one is so cracked. Rn my pets are the only thing keeping my alive, cause I know my parents will just give the guinea pigs away and my cat already meows for hours for me when I leave for school, I cant do that to my pets, my children. Anyways,
Talk to y'all later -Haru