VENTS

Fuck You🖕

TW: EMOTIONAL AND MENTAL ABUSE, DEPRESSION, SU!CID$, SELF H@RM.

You came into my life when I was 8 months old. I didn't have a choice on whether you adopted me to not. Newsflash YOU DID. Ever since I could remember you have literally treated me like absolute garbage. Ever since my sister came around I have been tossed aside and gotten nothing while she gets everything she has ever wanted. A bike? Yea she got it. A new bed? Yup, she got it.

But for me... I ask for a new backpack because mines falling apart. Nope. You treat her like the princess while I'm the peasant. 

You definitely won't see this and I'm so fucking glad. YOU SUCK MAN. 

I remember one time (not too long ago) you threatened to kick me out for not taking the trash out in YOUR BATHROOM. 

You tell me almost every day that I will never be good enough, that I am too fat, or that I need to gain weight. You make me feel unwanted. You are the worst type of "dad" you voluntarily took on the responsibility of raising a child and then treat them as less than nothing. You may think of yourself as my "dad" but that's not how myself or my friends see you. My closest friends know how you treat me. I can't wait till college. 

You don't know this but you are part of the reason I am su!c!dal. You are the biggest reason for it too. I cut my legs so that it's not noticeable. After "That summer"(read other parts) you never talk to me about it. you never check on me. You just forgot about it like it never happened. You have told me ever since I first learned what a job was that I would never be good enough to get a good one and that I would be your "Servant" forever. Every time I ever thought of a job you would tell me that I would never make it.

I am almost constantly in my room just so I don't have to be around you. I rarely invite friends over because I don't want them to see you drunk/high. I don't want my friends to see what I deal with constantly. 

I hate you. 

You made me hate myself. 

You made me hate my body image.

You made me Su!cadal.

I HATE YOU!!!