DESTINY

Chapter fourteen

"Easy there."

I patted his back and took back the cigarette I had given him a minute back. He was coughing after taking a single drag.

"You okay now?" He nodded and took the cigarette back.

"Don't do something which you can't do." I took a drag and let out the smoke.

"Hey, it's just that I haven't smoked from really long." He said defending and I just shake my head.

"So, tell me how does it feel to be friendzoned?" I questioned looking at him and he looked confused.

"Am talking about your song. 'Asal mein'.  Like why would that girl not love you. You freaking both her food at midnight." I say and he chuckles.

"You listen to my songs?" He raised a brow amused.

"Ah, not really. They are just so boring and always sad which makes me cringe, to be honest. Life is already so gloomy, then why hear these sad songs and cry on it?" I scrunched my nose.

"Not all of my songs are sad." He retorted.

"Yea yea. Making one or maybe two party slash grooving  songs will not stop me from calling your songs cringe." I crushed the edge of the cigarette and threw it away.

"Seriously!? You are calling them cringe? Don't forget before you would love these very song which you are hating now."

He said eyeing me and I went silent. Did he had to mention it? Yeah, I used to like them back then when he wasn't famous and we were friends. Friends...

Argh! I just don't want to think about it right now.

"You have changed." He said breaking my chain of thoughts. I turned my head towards my right to look at him.

"Like A lot."

I smiled sadly.

"Life happens. Things change, people change." I shrug.

We coexisted in silence. It was not uncomfortable or awkward.

"You said you need someone to talk  to. What is it? " I asked remembering the reason at the first place why I decided to stay.

He heaved a sigh and began, "Well, things are getting really messy in my life. I feel like I have turned into a bot. I have no control on it. All everyone want to do is boss over me."
He ran his finger through his hair making it messy.

"Sometimes I feel like running away to somewhere, where no one could find me."

"Then just do it." I say looking at him. He is always like this. He does something and wants  something else, other than music, ofcourse.

"It's not that easy." He looks back at me.

" Not easy? You have always did what you wanted.." I looked on to him as he turned away.

"Nothing is easy in life. If you want it , you have to do it.Just like how you wanted to be a singer and fought all the odds to be one right?" I continued.    And how you, I guess wanted to stop talking to me all of a sudden, Just like that.

I didn't said that loud though.

"Am happy that I fought for my dreams. Am happy that am living my dream which  many donot get to do. But it is also draining that my life is always contorled by someone. First the management team and now Tara."

"Tara?" I questioned getting curious.

Okay brain will you stop now?  Why am I curious. Is she his girlfriend? It shouldn't bother me. No doesn't bother me.

"Yea. My girlfriend."

Ohh.

My heart sank. Why am I still expecting that he wouldn't have one?

Because, somewhere I still like him.

"Okay!" I mumbled and looked at the empty night sky. My eyes were filled with tears as I looked on into the darkness reflecting my own dark soul.

"Adhira..." He began and I knew where this was going. But I didn't stop him this time.    "About what happened years back, am just really sorry. I shouldn't have done that to you." I laughed sarcastically.

"Sorry won't fix anything." I smiled sadly.

"But only if you give me a chance..." He trailed off.

"A chance for what? A chance to break my trust again? A chance to leave me hanging again? A chance so that I can hate myself again? "

Tears rolled down my cheeks. I didn't try to control them either. It was like I was holding too much in so I just let them out.

"Darshan..am over it.  And I can see that you have to--"

"No.No. Adhira."

I shook my head as more tears fell form my eyes.

"Yeah right, you waited for so many years to confront me. Anyways, just please don't come to me and ask for a chance. What happened, has happened. It won't change anything. So you know just leave me to myself."

With that I walked off, tears still streaming down my cheeks.