The Divine and Devious Voice

By: Ian Dwight D. Dajoyag

"Close your eyes, prepare yourself as you fell into the deep chamber of thoughts. I would like you to know the secret that lies inside your mind that cannot be witness by many, people with no deep connections and intimate relationship.

I would like to ask you some few questions before we start...

Are you afraid?

Do you have faith?

Can you control yourself?

These questions were enough to determine what your outcome will be."

No one has ever said those lines to me. No one asked me those questions that I wanted for someone else to say in front of me. Talking to myself with full of hesitations and doubt, asking myself "Why am I doing this? I don't deserve to be alone". People keep nagging and take foolish actions that they haven't realized what they have done after doing it, they give a damn though about it.

"What's the problem of not being reasonable?" Questions like these are too sore for my ears to hear. People tend to listen to someone if they have enough reason that can bought their time and mind. "I want to listen to your problems, but I have my own..." I felt sorry for both me and others. Having grief and painful wounds from expectations and reality really wants me to end my dear self.

"You are not alone, always remember that. By the end of the day, someone will love you and someone already loved you because of who you are. Do you really want to know, who's that person?

Open your mind and heart...

Do you understand what it means to open up? Let those feelings reached that mysterious person and he will be known once you've met him. Faith comes with trust, and trust comes with courage, and it will all end in one word.

Are you ready to swim in the deep sea of thought?"

I'm not that strong, but I always dive to the deep sea of thought. I end up discovering nothing but empty dark room and strange lines that floats around me. What does it mean to dive in the deep sea of thought?

I can't follow what my heart is telling me, but my mind dictating false words that doesn't suit the situations I'm facing. Arguments, someone must lose and someone must win. Someone will be at ease and someone will be in pain.

"Are you lost my child? Let me help you find a way to achieve love and salvation...

Who is that? What are those words again? Someone asked why am I wandering in this pitch black chamber...

Join me to the other side and I'll fulfil your valuable desire...

Something is awfully different in the second voice. Another thought? That doesn't seems to be new...

Two thoughts... two words... You'll only choose one."

I can't decide, I don't know what to do. I'll have to choose between fooling myself or being pulled. Wake up my deer self, you're drowning in your deep thoughts.

That's the story on how a person like can never go back to the deep sea of thought. I have already decided what I'm going to choose, now, what's yours?

THE END...