"if there is nothing more painful than a painful love.. then go back before even more painful memories remain."
while choosing to wait, you stop yourself from doing anything else.
waiting for someone puts your life at a pause.
.
.
.
if it was you...
as you returned back to Canada, you still had a few weeks before the new semester starts. so, as soon as you settled in, you also went back to your day time job.
as the days passed, and the school starts, you tried balancing between school and work. this was normal for you. you were already a working student even before. but this time around, you find it hard. you get tired more easily, you were pushing yourself too much because you had to. you want your baby to have everything they wants. that's the kind of life you want for you them.
you're all that baby has.
you have to stay strong for the baby. and you had to do what's best for the both of you. so you got up, and packed all your things.
you're returning back to Korea.
no one knew you returned back to Korea. so, as soon as you arrived back, you settled in, searched for a new apartment and start to look for a part time job.
and luckily you found a new apartment, as well as a new job. your new apartment is a lot smaller than before, but it's perfect for you and Byul.
you had this name "Byul" on your thoughts for awhile now. Byul means "star" . you were always in awe with the night sky, so you thought to yourself, Byul would be a perfect name for the baby, regardless of the gender of the baby. Byul would suit either a him or a her.
so one day, you just finished your shift. you were walking to your old apartment to get some things,and as soon as you were almost by the door, you felt as if some liquid was running down your legs. so you quickly went to the bathroom and saw that there was blood and you were spotting.
you cried, not knowing what to do.
"mommy can't loose you too Byul. please stay with me.", you said to yourself as you caressed your tummy.
you messaged Woozi out of panic.
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(on the phone) Woozi: Aera?
: /you were sobbing, i'm bleeding. i don't know what to do Uji..
Woozi: okay, where are you???
: i'm at the apartment.
you can't seem to stop crying and calm down. you were just feeling hopeless.
Woozi: Aera, i need you to calm down okay? go to the nearest hospital, i'll meet you there.
: okay, i'm on my way. /you sniffed
Woozi: good girl. i'll see you there. i'm on my way. /he then hang up
you calmed yourself down, got up, and went to the doctor straight away.
the trip to the emergency room was scary. you're all alone, waiting for the doctor to come, scared to loose the baby.
as you were laying on the bed at the emergency room, you felt as if someone held your hand. it was Woozi.
