Colorless * Editing :) *

Chapter 13

Chapter 13 Of Colorless : Sooner Or Later

Song ~ Ed Sheeran - I See Fire ( Kygo Remix)

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Ashley Pov ( I tell you who she is later in the story !)

I said I would come for him one day. But that day has yet to come.

Here, I find myself with my own family. A husband who loves me dearly and a little baby boy that will be soon joining this family of ours in a few more months.

But still, I feel empty.

Physically, no. But emotionally, yes.

Even when my dear husband spells out how much he loves me and pours his heart and soul into everything he does for me, I feel as if it isn't enough.

Love, yes it's there. But not here, not with him.

My true love is out there, somewhere. With that.... Woman.. And their own child or however many they chose to have.

He should have been with me!

Not with that woman. He should have been here, making sweet pleasurable love to me, not her. He should have been here, raising all of our kids with me. He should have been here, so we could grow old together, surround by out great grand children and their greats.

But he's not. All because of her.

What was so promising about her? What did she have that I didn't?! I was and still is way more beautiful than she'll ever be. She's plain and boring while I consider myself spontaneous and outgoing.

What did he ever see in her?

I bet what ever children they have now aren't even his! She's probably having an affair that is long over due from being exposed. And just when it does, he will be heartbroken and I sure do wish I am there.

She's doesn't deserve him, never did and never will.

She took him from me in high school, the four years of my life I will never forget.

She just waltzed in and then bam! He was trapped in her claws. I let him slip through my fingers within a blink of an eye. I should have fought harder for him because after all I only wanted him for sex.

It started in sophomore year, the year we both lost our virginity to each other. But after that he carried on sleeping with other girls as I did he same. We both thought it was just a stupid one night stand but somehow we came back to each other and it just went on from there.

We actually went out in junior year but in the summer we broke up because I cheated on him with his so called best friend. But he said that we were bound to break up since our relationship was just based on sex.

But sex with him, made me feel loved.

My dad never cared about me, he was always gone on business trips while my so called mother disappeared when I turned four and I haven't seen her since.

So I grew up by myself, learning bad habits that die hard now that I'm older.

But still, I love him. I always will.

Even though he isn't mine, he has a place in my heart that is permanent.

" Honey? Are you okay?" The worried voice of my husband clouded my thoughts and knocked me back into the harsh reality we called life.

" I'm sorry what?" I questioned as I stared into his deep green eyes. Gorgeous he was, but nothing could compare to Levi... Oh how sweet his name tasted on my lips.