Dear Corona

Chapter 4

Thursday the 2nd of April, 2020

Dear Corona,

 I feel down. Well, not literally, I just feel mentally down. It doesn't matter how hard I try it just doesn't help. I think I will get depression. Last night I woke up at 3:06AM screaming. I had really scary dream about falling into the ocean and being swallowed by dark-blue sea which stopped me breathing. I realized that during sleep I accidentally covered my face with a pillow. Just when you think it can't be any worse, you run out of cigarettes. I barely could handle the crisis. I texted Nora and she texted back that she will fetch a pack of cigarettes for me. Anyway, everything is alright at home. We don't have that many cases of you, Corona, in my country. Try to behave nicely! Because of you people in my country got treated bad in those quarantine facilities! I heard the rumor that they put a hundred of beds in some hall inside the basketball arena. People are waiting in line for a shower and some of them didn't shower for two weeks. They say that they are surrounded by soldiers and that they feel like it is a war situation. I am just thankful that I am isolated here where it is safe for living without worries because I believe this company. I am sure that they will give their best to keep us safe. Anyway, my room is really beautiful. As you enter on the left side there is wardrobe where you can put a lot of clothes. On the right side there is a door that leads you to the bathroom which is small but modern and clean. As you go straight to the left side there is writing table with big mirror and TV attached to it so you could move it. On the right side there is blue sofa that I use to stash my clothes when I am too lazy to put it in wardrobe. Then there is a big French bed in front of you that is really soft and you enjoy sleeping (except when you have nightmares). Then there is a bigger balcony where I spend my first twenty minutes with coffee and music after I wake up.

One really amazing thing that happened today is that our Cruise Director - Linus and HR Manager – Nathalia have organized some kind of tv show for us, crew members, to have fun watching them. It is interesting how we can join the show by calling them. People were calling like crazy to guess the association game and to win the prize which was a bottle of Champagne. I could hear Matthew's voice during the show. He was Activity Manager so it is probably normal to be in that tv show wonder. I just hope he won't show up or something. I mostly he organized the whole thing. I already said that I like him and that I am, sort of, afraid that one day he will say: ''You are too young!'' sentence again. I am allergic to that sentence! After show ended and I stopped laughing I went to sleep. I was thankful because it made me forget about the cigarettes. I took a short nap and I was woken by knocking at the door. I jumped to open it and saw Nora standing and smiling. She gave me a pack and I secretly hugged her. We had to be careful or we could get fired and sent home at first chance they get to do it and this is all to good to be over soon, I guess it is because I want to see if there is any more chances with Matthew. I just don't want to force things when it comes to him. I want to learn more about him. What he likes? How is his life? What is his favorite song? What is his favorite movie or color or what he loves to do in the free time (except drinking)?

And... that would be all for today.

Corona, please, behave.

Calvin