This is Love

Chapter 6

I start to open my eyes. I'm blinded by a bright light. It sends a sharp pain to my forehead. I move my hands and I feel myself laying on a hard floor. Its tile. I sit up and a wave of nausea hits. I rush towards the toilet that I'm laying next to. I spill my guts into the bowl. It burns almost as much as it did when it went down. I feel a hand rub my back. I jump, sending another wave of nausea as I empty my stomach.

"April." I hear Trevor mumble from behind me. Once my stomach feels settled, I turn and look towards Trevor. He looks at me concerned, feeling his eyes. I start to feel a pit of guilt. I look away from him and stare at the wall. "I'm sorry, you shouldn't have to see this."

I bring my hands up to my face. Running them through my hair. I have had hangovers before but I knew this one was going to be bad. I drank more than I have ever drank before. It's not true what they tell you, that if you drink enough you will forget. You won't forget, you will have a killer headache. Which will give you time to think about the past events. That's what is happening right now. Memories of this morning come flooding back. I feel a tear fall down my face. Trevor starts running his hand up and down my back.

"What happened?" I crook out. I hear Trevor take a deep breath. "Well I was in the lobby on the computer, doing some work I needed to catch up on. I didn't even notice you came back because it was early. So I stayed down there for a couple hours. After it was about five and I went back to the room to get something to eat, when I saw you passed out on the bed." I turn and look at him, my cheeks probably stained with tears. "I'm sorry." he gives me a smile. He grabs my face. "Are you okay? You had me scared. I was the one who brought you into here." I shake my head. "We shouldn't have come. Nothing is going to change." He looks at me a little confused. He brings his hands up to my face. "What happened?"

"My sister happened. She was ranting about how I changed. How I shouldn't have left. I should have stayed and been the perfect little girlfriend. How I should have married Mikael." I bring my hand up to my mouth, shocked at what I just Sayed. Trevor looks at me, his eyebrows furrowed. "You should have married Mikael? What do you mean?" I let it slip. It's too late to take it back now. The truth has to come out.

"I was engaged." I look down at our entwined hands. I hear Trevor suck in a breath. "What?" He breaths out. "I wasn't just running away from Mikael. I was running away from an engagement. I was running away from the pain." I start to sob. Trevor brings his hand and starts wiping away the tears. I look up at him. "You need to tell me. We promised we would tell each other the truth." I close my eyes. "It hurts, Trev. It hurts." He pulls me to his chest rubbing me head with his hand. "I know it does, baby, but you got to tell me." I pull away from him. "Can you help me to the bed?" He nods his head.

He helps me up and carries me to the bed. Setting me down gently. He walks away for a moment and comes back with a glass of water and an aspen. "Thank you." I take the pill and down the water. My stomach feels better once the liquor is out of it, but I still have a killer headache.

Trevor crawls behind me so my back is resting against his chest. He wraps his arm around my waist. I take a deep breath. "It's okay whenever you're ready. I will wait." Trevor says as he does I feel his chest rumble.

I sigh. "It was the night of my prom. Mikael was my date of course. I was having the best time. I was actually happy. Well instead of going to the after party, my sister and Mikael decide to go to the diner. I thought it was a little strange of course, but I went along with it. When we arrived at the diner my family was there. My mom, dad, uncle, grandparents, everyone. I walked it to ask what everyone was doing when it went silent. I turned and there was Mikael on his new with a ring in his hand." I let out a laugh and rolled my eyes. "I said yes, being I thought I was in love. Even though I had no idea what love was at the time." I feel Trevor's arms tighten. "You okay?" I ask him. "Yes, please continue." I take a breath as I continue. "The next few weeks were amazing. Everyone was so nice for once, I had more attention than my sister. Well that was all going to change the night before my graduation. Mikael said he had a surprise for me. He took me to this house. He said it was going to be ours. As we were touring the house we arrived at the bedroom." My voice falters towards the end of the sentence. Trevor kisses the top of my head, a sign to continue.