Mitigate

Calm

3

I got out and slipped the towel on before going into my room, making sure my door was locked. I let go of the towel. My music was still playing from the speaker, now on my desk, I hummed along as I pulled over my top and pulled up my pants. Getting into bed after shutting off my speaker I took another deep breath before praying for my father's safety, at this point it was routine.

The next morning I dreaded waking up and getting dressed, I couldn't find my other shoe when I slipped on my shoes and almost forgot my bag for school. I didn't have to do much to my hair as it laid against my back, my hair was much like my mother's. It had a mind of its own, So I had it braided in two braids with false hair entwined with my own. I ran downstairs and out the door with my brother driving both of us to school. We had a routine where we'd wait outside for the rest of our friend group. Yesterday I informed Tyler that Bella had said hi to me at work and he in turn told me that while I missed those few days of school Bella in fact squirmed her way into our little group.

I waited the inevitable and noticed her standing by her beat-up truck, I rolled my eyes as Tyler called her over and it only pissed me off as she just held her book up silently basically telling us to fuck off. I scowled softly what the hell is wrong with her? I suddenly felt calmer, the need to say something to her went away and I shook my head what the hell!? I looked around to see if anyone noticed my discomfort before landing on the Cullens, I locked eyes with Rosalie who smiled at me and waved slightly. I returned the smile and glanced over to her right. Spotting the honey blonde standing next to a small brunette, his eyes boring into mine. I tilted my head a bit confused as to why he was watching me.

I knew who he was, Jasper Hale. He was the one who looked like he was in pain half the time, but I could tell he didn't mean to look that way. I gave him a half smile causing him to look away. Disappointment filled me and I looked away as well talking with the rest of the group. Later in the day I strolled into lunch sitting next to Angela who looked at me with a smile "what's that smile for?" She didn't say anything and motioned her head towards the cullens "what about them?" "Two things, one Bella seems obsessed with them" "just like everyone else" I interrupted, she sighed and continued "and two I saw your little staring match with Jasper hale this morning"

I set my apple down and glared at her "Ang doll, I just noticed him and besides they've been here for two years" I shrugged. She decided to let it go and moved closer to Jessica who seemed to be showing her and Bella a YouTube video, but Bella's eyes were looking towards the place my eyes had ventured to. Instead of looking at an empty seat I was looking at Alice and Jasper, his hand intertwined with hers causing my stomach to form knots. I shook my head and looked away already ready for lunch to be over. After lunch was over Rosalie made her way towards me "I noticed you staring twice today, who is it that you've suddenly grown accustomed to?" I looked at her in surprise and chuckled "I don't know what you're talking about Blondie"

She smiled at the nickname, her dimples causing me to watch her carefully "it was Jasper wasn't it" my cheeks blushed at her accusation and she knew she was right. I scoffed "you're making up stuff, don't spread rumors or we will have issues" I walked off causing her to smirk, Emmett walked up behind her and rubbed her shoulders "who was that?" He kissed her cheek softly causing her to smile widely "a friend" he raised his brow "really? She must be something for you to like her" she nodded "she's Carlisle's intern, I met her this weekend. She's different"

"I think I have a class with her" he let go of her shoulders and grabbed her hand walking down the hall with her. The day had finally come to an end and I went home exhausted, flopping onto my bed I thought about this morning. Why had I felt so calm? As a person with severe anxiety it concerned me. Thinking about it reminded me that I needed to take my medicine to calm my nerves before things got worse. My dad knew what to do when I had episodes, my mother didn't know how to handle me. She took me to see therapists and I couldn't open up to any of them, so she opted for pills diagnosed by a doctor slightly changing how I viewed hospitals.

I shook my head from the thoughts and sipped the water from my bathroom faucet to help the pill go down easier. I sat on my toilet and ran my hands through my hair. Why did he look at me like that? I sighed and leaned back before getting up and going back to my room, I turned on my TV and settled on supernatural. My eyes raised at the possibility of the Cullens being something inhuman. I shook my head again and laid back before slowly falling asleep. I woke up to the tv still playing and my phone ringing, I sighed before grabbing it. The clock told me that I had napped for 2 hours causing me to smile and yawn.

I answered my phone "hello?" I didn't look to see the caller ID and was met with Jacob Black's loud ass voice in my speakers "hey princess what are you up to?" I cringed at the name and he knew I hated being called that "I was asleep, but your annoying ass woke me up. What do you want black" "come hang out with me" Jacob was like an annoying brother, and when you already have one of those, it gets pretty tiring "Jacob" I whined not wanting to leave the confinements of my covers and pillows "come on, just for a little bit"

I debated for a few seconds and then told him I would meet him at his house in ten "thanks princess" "don't fucking call me that Jacob" I hung up and laid my phone on my pillow beside me. I got up and went to my closet looking for something to wear. I settled on a Grey crop top with sweater material and my fitted jeans, slipping on a slightly furry vest I grabbed my phone and ran out of my room. I went downstairs and spotted my mama on the couch "where's Tyler, I need him to drive me somewhere?" I looked around. She glanced up at me from her soap opera and smiled "look at you, where are you going dressed like that?" I blushed at her compliment "mom, it's just Jake, he wants to hang out" I shrugged "well I don't know where your brother went, he said something about Mike, but that's all I heard" I sighed.