Passion To Love Yet Fear Of Betrayal (A Zayn Malik FanFiction)

Chapter 5

Zayn's P.O.V

I walked into star bucks and noticed that the boys have not arrived yet. I ordered and sat down by the table close to window. I was not sure if the boys would show up today, they said they were angry about what I had did last night, but I didn't know what they were talking about.  I sipped my tea and looked out the window, it was raining, the small drips of rain  reminded me of Perrie. If only we didn't break up yesterday I sighed  and turned to face the t.v that was placed along the wall. My jaw dropped open and my eyes grew wide when I saw what was on gossip news.

There were many pictures of me hitting a helpless girl, she had gorgeous light brown eyes,her hair was brunette and it was straight, there were  also tear stains on her shirt. My heartbeat raced faster and I couldn't remember when all of this had taken place.  I couldn't believe what I was seeing, it all seemed to untrue. My hands were shaking as this one picture showed up, the girl's face was as pale as a ghosts skin, she was brutally hurt. I cringed at the thought that I could ever hurt someone like that. I was drunk that night and was upset about my break up with Perrie, I wasn't stable enough to know what I was doing. And I know I'm regretting it.

I rushed to the washroom and  looked in the mirror. I  saw a different person,a person that was disgusted, I couldn't face the truth and I felt like a coward at the moment. I knew that the paparazzi would find me any minute so I just needed to be strong and go back out. 

I walked out of the washroom and straight out the door. All it took was a step out side of Starbucks and the paparazzi were flashing there cameras. I could barely see anything, everything was too bright.

"Hey Zayn, come with me!" I heard a voice behind me shout out

Without thinking I took the person's hand, I just wanted to get away from all this madness. 

My shocked expression turned into a frown once I saw who it was. 

"Hey Zayn, what the hell are you doing here by yourself" Paul spitted out

"Well Paul I was supposed to have lunch with the boys this afternoon" 

"But Zayn they went back to their hometowns to visit their families" Paul said as he shot me a sympathetic look. 

I felt crushed at that moment and felt as if i had committed a huge crime. I didn't have a problem with them leaving, but they were not here with me when I needed them the most. I felt guilt and regret for what I did.All I remember is that I was drunk when I had hurt that innocent person. I felt a tear slip out of my eye. All I could think about was Perrie and I, I knew I couldn't live without her shes my life, I Thought to myself. My whole world was falling apart in a matter of minutes and I knew I couldn't do anything about it . I stood there in silence for a minute and thought over how I made a bad impression on the band.When I came back from my thoughts I  looked up at Paul. 

I never thought I would see tears in his eyes but it seemed as if he had also let out a few tears. He knew about the breakup but I wasn't comfortable talking about it.

"Zayn, come I'll drop you home" I nodded and walked over to his black truck. 

Shivani's P.O.V

My Jaw dropped open and I couldn't believe what I had seen.

She was gorgeous!, her beautiful dark brown eyes resembled Zayn. Her smile was sparkling white and she couldn't look any better. It was better than I imagined, She was even more stunning than what I saw in pictures.  

Trisha Malik was over, man my uncle has class I thought to my self. I chuckled at the thought and noticed that all eyes were on me. Zayn's mom's eyes grew wide open as if she had just seen an animal that had been caged up for a while.She had a horrified look on her face. I knew I looked horrible at the moment. 

I stood there like an idiot until my uncle decided to introduce me to Trisha. 

"Trisha this is Shivani" He said with a grin on his face

Trisha's terrified look changed into  more of a soft smile. 

"Hey Shivani, It's nice to meet you love" she smiled, butterflies started to abrupt  in my stomach when she said that.

"It's nice to meet you to Mrs.Malik" I said politely trying to stop myself from blushing. My Aunt was sitting on the sofa and she looked away as I talked to Mrs.Malik. I don't think she really seems to like me, she looked at me as if I had just come from another planet. My Aunt came quickly by my side, but she still didn't look up at me, instead she thought that the floor was more interesting. None of them bothered to comment on the state I was in, they didn't even bother to say anything about the bruise I had on my face and it still hurts. 

Hey sweetheart, why don't you go freshen up, you really need it" My aunt mumbled.

I looked back at Trisha who was getting ready to leave. My mind filled with thoughts about last night. One thing in particular I was thinking about, should I Ms.Malik about  what had happened last night? While she put on her flats, I fidgeted with my fingers.

I looked down at the floor and began to mumble

"uhm Mrs. Malik I need to talk to you about something" I said without thinking it over again.

The room was quiet and negative thoughts filled my mind, what if she thinks i'm lying?those thoughts made things worse, I was a nervous and an emotional wreck. All eyes were on me, waiting for me to say something....

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