LOST// NBA YOUNGBOY

Vol. 1

{~Excuse all mistakes~}

JOURNI'S POV:
May 25th, 2020
Monday
10:58 am

I was always lost ...

"Every since I was born, I had never fit in with 'normal people' they didnt have a problem with treating me like the crazy person. They always treated me like I don't belong here. I've always had these voices in my head, and I can't change that! I didn't ask for this! The Voices just appeared out of nowhere. My parents were sick, well thats what the people always tell me when I used to ask about them. I don't really remember my parents that much but I do remember that night like it happened yesterday... They just left me there. Not caring what happened to me. Just left me like I meant nothing to them. Like I wasn't their daughter. They did leave a note... though at the time I was only 5 and couldn't understand what they meant by 'We were never pleased with how you turned out. We needed more help and so do you. Your Unstable and we can't take care of you anymore.' I never fully understood. I remember them packing my bags and I remember my mom's faces my dad pulled her away from me when we got to the hospital- Look im done talking about this!!" I told to my therapist Mrs.Reed.

A tear almost escaped my eye but I was to stubborn to let it fall. So I viciously wiped it away.

"Journi its ok to express your feelings sweetheart. I would never tell a soul about anything that goes on in my office. I promise you that!" She explained to me

"Our session is up luvbug I'll talk to you same time Wednesday?" She suggested like every three days out of the week I come up here.

"Yes Mrs.Reed , I will come back you don't have to keep suggesting me to come back. I know that I can't ever get rid of my condition but I also know that you are helping me better myself and get better." I explained to her giggling a bit.

"Alright my sweet child. I love you now take care and dont forget to take your medicine!" She smiled and told me as I was getting up.

"I love you too Ma. See you later." I responded to her honestly because I did love her she has helped me with so much and she's like a mother to me and I love her...We all do!

"See you later bug." She said as I left out the room

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I was laying on my bed in the GH (A/N: Group House/Home) listening to my bestfriend Raine who's been there for me since I was nine when I ran away from my foster home because of reasons I don't wish to discuss.

"Girllllll im telling you if we go to this party tonight we will have am amazing freaking time there!" She expressed getting frustrated

Raine tried to convince me to go to this beach party with  her and Kentrell.  Kentrell is a boy I met almost 3 years ago when I was 15 and I kinda have a crush on him. He's a known rapper and has 4 kids and 4 Bm's but don't judge him yet he's actually a good person he's just been heart broken a couple times. I met Kentrell and Ben nem when I was 15 and I snuck out the GH to go smoke with Raine every since then me and The Nba gang has been cool.

"And anyway you need to get out of this hell hole so just come with me pleaseeeeee bestfrannnnnn I love you please come with me If you come I-" She rambled on and on til I cut her off

"If this bitch don't shut tf up imma kill ha" Travel said in my head

"Gurl hush you aint gonna do nun but Just agree to go so she can shut up" Voyage. Responed in a annoyed tone

"Ok damn ill go only if you shut the hell up cuz We getting annoyed with yo ass" I laughed because of the petty agurement Travel amd Voyage were having.