Snape's Unknown Secret

Dumbledore's Manipulations Part 2

Black mist swirled around the two once more. It was difficult for Harry to watch. Ever since Harry found out he was a wizard, he was told how great his father was. Harry felt ashamed that people thought James was his father. For once in Harry's life, he was glad Snape was his real father.

"I'm so sorry you had to see that.." Snape said not looking at Harry.

"I'm sorry that happened to you," Harry said awkwardly.

He looked around and saw that they were in Dumbledore's office again. But sitting across Dumbledore's desk, was an older Lily and Snape. Dumbledore was leaning across the desk and speaking quietly. The charming twinkle in his eye was gone. Lily was fiddling with a loose string on her robes and Snape was gripping her arm.

"As you know Voldemort is rising to power," Dumbledore said and Snape winced. "I have a plan, but I need both of your permission."

"What is it?" Lily asked.

"You see, Severus was friends with some of Voldemort's followers a couple years ago," Dumbledore started.

"You want me to join you-know-who," Snape said.

"Exactly. But you will be a spy for the order."

"No you can't make him! He will find out!" Lily cried.

"In order for it to work, only us three will know about it."

"I'll do it." Snape finally said.

"You can't Severus!"

"Come talk to me over here," Snape motioned over to the side of the room, where Harry and Snape were watching.

"Lily we have to!" Snape said quietly.

"Why?! What if you die?"

"This is the only way we will have a future together."

"But I love you Severus!"

"I know, I love you too. This is the only way."

"Okay, let's do it."

They walked back over to Dumbledore.
"I'll do it," said Snape.

Dumbledore smiled.

The dark mist swirled and surrounded them once again until they were standing in a large field. It was sunny and the long grass was golden from the hot summer. It was the same field that Lily and Snape were playing in as kids.

Snape and lily were running once again. This time Lily was ahead of Snape. Snape was clearly letting Lily run ahead. Soon Lily stopped to look over the horizon. Snape stopped behind her and got down on one knee. Lily turned around and gasped.

"Severus! I-" she held her hands over her mouth. Her dress flew behind her in the wind.

"Lily I love you so much. I always have. Will you marry me?" Snape opened a box. Inside was a necklace.

"Of course!" Lily cried. Snape stood up and put the necklace around Lily's neck.

"Open it," Snape said. Lily opened the necklace and inside was a picture of Snape and Lily from seventh year. On the other side were the words "Amica mea".

"Oh Severus! I love it!" Lily said tearing up. Snape leaned down and hugged Lily. Lily let go of the necklace and wrapped her arms around Snape. "I love you," she whispered into his ear.

"I love you too."

The dark mist swirled and consumed them once again until they were on a beach. The sky was filled with pinks, yellows, and blues. The water reflected the sky and sparkled. Down the beach was a crowd of people.

The people were sitting in white chairs and facing an arch of flowers. Under the arch of flowers was Snape and Lily. Snape was in a completely black wizard suit and his hair was tied up into a half ponytail. Lily was in a long white dress and her hair was curled and flowed down her back. There was a lily sticking out behind her ear that Snape had given her earlier.

Lily and Snape were holding each other's hands while looking into their eyes.
"You may now kiss the bride," a wizard said.

Snape held his hand on Lily's face and lily held her hand on top of his.

The mist swirled again but this time felt different. It felt colder.

They were in Dumbledore's office. Dumbledore was sitting at his desk and across was Lily and Snape. Lily was sobbing and Snape was holding her in his arms. He was shushing her while stroking her hair. In the doorway stood James.

"I'm sorry, but it's gotten too risky," said Dumbledore. "You're going to have to marry James." James looked up and a smirk appeared on his face. Snape glared back at him. "Voldemort is getting too suspicious of Severus."

Lily sobbed harder. "There has to be another way!" She cried.

"I'm afraid not."

The mist flowed and swirled, darker this time.

They were in a house at a large table. Lots of people were surrounding it. At one end was Snape and at the other was Lily and James. James was flirting with Lily and Lily giggled. Snape glared darkly at them both, but his eyes seemed sad.

"As you all know now, Severus has been a spy for us, but it has gotten very risky. In order to keep everyone safe, Lily and James have gotten married!" Dumbledore said while raising a glass. Everyone cheered and clapped.

"Congrats!" One wizard said.

The mist swirled even darker and colder than any of the other times.

Snape stood in front of a house. He walked slowly to the front door. As he reached for the door knob he was shaking. The door opened slowly.

It was dark inside and very quiet. He walked towards the stairs and went up. As he turned the corner he saw James laying on the floor. He bent down and checked his pulse. He stood up and continued down the hallway. He headed towards the last room where the door was slightly ajar. He pushed it open and froze.

Lily was laying on the floor in a heap. He let out a hoarse yell, and fell to the ground. He rolled Lily over and held her in his arms, completely unaware of the past life they lived. Their happy marriage all gone because James had erased his memory a year ago. He let out chokes and sobs as he held her limp body. Finally he stood up and sent out a patronus to Dumbledore. The doe galloped out of his wand and disappeared. He bent down to Lily and saw something shine around her neck. He pulled it and saw a necklace. It wasn't an ordinary necklace, but a locket. He unlatched it and opened it. He started sobbing again.

Inside was a picture of Snape and Lily from seventh year. On the other side the words "Amica mea". But there was also a folded piece of paper. He opened it and read it.

Dear Severus,
By now you probably know that I'm dead. I'm so sorry, I know how much you loved me. I've worn this necklace everyday since. I love you so much and I always have. I never loved James as much as you. Please try to live on without me no matter how much it hurts.
Take care Severus.
With love,
-Lily ♡