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today's weather was pretty nice in a way but it doesn't feel the same to me, not like it did before. i was in a flower field just sitting down playing with the flowers and doing whatever. this place was sorta special to me and brought back some memories from before. i smiled to myself while looking at a white tulip flower a slowly picking it from its stem. tears started to go down my face while looking at the flower in my hand because all i could think of was hyunjin still and how we had some good memories here.
flashback:
"where are we going jinnie?" i asked while he was covering my eyes with his hands bringing me somewhere. "we are almost there hold on" hyunjin said soon removing his hands from my eyes "alright open them up" i opened my eyes to seeing a big flower field. it was the most beautiful place i've ever seen. "do you like it?" hyunjin asked and i nodded my head immediately loving the sight of all the flowers. "glad you like it lixie" i smiled at that nickname "when did you start calling me lixie?" he shrugged at me "lixie just sounds like a good nickname for you" i smiled a bit more and walked over to the fully bloomed white tulip flowers with hyunjin following behind me.
i sat down and picked some flowers and started to try making a flower crown but failed so many times. hyunjin sat behind me watching me fail making a flower crown. "do you need help with that?" i shook my head no "nope i don't need help, i've got it down" i said starting to do the flower crown a bit better but i failed again. "agh how hard is it to make a damn flower crown" i said giving up on it then leaning back thinking i was going to fall down onto the ground but instead i fell down onto hyunjin. he didn't seem to mind plus he is more comfortable than the ground. "you're just trying too hard that's why you can't make one" i tilted my head up to see hyunjin's face looking down at me "if you're so good at it, you make one for me instead." i looked back at the flowers seeing hyunjin pick some and starting to make a flower crown.
i watched the way how he made the flower crown so i would know how to do it. he finished the flower crown and placed it on my head. "see it's not that hard" i crossed my arms "i totally could've done that" i tilted my head up to look and him and he looked down at me "sure you could" he ruffled my hair a tiny bit and kissed my forehead.
end of flashback
tears were streaming down my face just remembering about that. "why did it have to be fake?" i whispered to myself with a shaky voice. i picked some bloomed tulips up and decided to make a flower crown. the tears were dried up on my face now but i still felt like crying just a bit more. "how did he do this so well?" i said to myself failing on the flower crown. "no one can make such a perfect flower crown like he can" i softly said with a tiny smile on my face but it was a weak smile. "who can make a perfect flower crown?" that voice made me jump a bit because i didn't think anyone else was here at the moment. i looked behind myself to see hyunjin standing behind me with a smile on his face but his expression became a worried expression on my face "hey are you ok? it looks like you were crying." he said squatting down to be on my level because i was sitting down. i looked away from him and looked over at the flowers "i'm fine. i'm just thinking about some stuff right now" i said staring at the ground but i wasn't really fine at all.
"do you want to talk about it felix?" i was shocked he remembered my name "you remembered my name?" he hummed in response "of course i did" i smiled a bit when told me that "i don't really want to talk about it right now" i picked up the failed flower crown and tried redoing it. "you got it but you're doing one thing wrong" i looked over at him and looked back at the crown "what could i be doing wrong?" he chuckled and grabbed the unfinished flower crown from my hands and showed me how to do it properly "i still don't understand how you do it" he sighed at me and started to finish the flower crown for me. i smiled at how focused he seemed while making it.
"it's now finished" he said placing the flower crown on top of my head. the flower crown looked perfect like it did last time and it made me smile even more. "thank you hyunjin" he smiled at me "no problem. you know you should smile more, you look cute when you smile" my cheeks turned a light shade of pink "wait so are you saying i don't look cute when i don't smile?" he pat my head "you look cute all the time" my cheeks turned to a darker shade of pink. right now i felt happy a bit happy that he was talking to me, maybe this is another start for me.
