i stood in front of the mirror fixing my tie for the hundredth time with tears still streaming down my face.
how could i be so stupid? i thought while wiping my face. i let out a shaky breath as i walked over to my bed. i shut my eyes while sitting down as tears started to stream down my face again. the more i tried not to cry the more the tears streamed down my cheeks. my heart started to beat faster and i couldn't take it anymore; i screamed while slamming my arms down on the bed beneath me.
as i did i felt a small piece of metal under my right hand. i finally opened my eyes and grabbed the piece of metal to look at it.
"i cant take this anymore sam." she said sighing, "im sorry." she said quickly.
"sorry?" i asked bitterly, "your sorry Ariana? how could you do this to me a-" i began to stutter as the crying became harder. "a-and you decide to do this today?" i asked angrily in between sobs.
"i just couldn't lie to you anymore, samantha. i really am sorry."
"sorry for breaking my heart or sorry for lying to me about loving me?" i asked wiping tears off my face.
"i do love you sam, i just.." she paused taking another deep breath. "i didn't expect to meet him, i didn't think i'd fall in love with him i-"
her words sliced through me like a knife. i scoffed cutting her off. "get out" i said simply.
"cmon sam, don't-"
"i said get out, and leave your key." i said looking down at my hands now.
she didn't answer after that. i felt her place the key next to me and a few seconds later i heard the bedroom door shut, then the front door.
i was interrupted from my thoughts when i heard my phone start to ring. i picked it up and it read 'jisoo'.
i sighed and turned the volume off, i don't have the heart to talk to her yet. i can't. within a minute or so my phone vibrated. i picked it up to see that it was still jisoo but a message this time.
'i know you're not going to answer, but i sent a car for you, i'll see you there, i love you.'
i shut off my phone and slid it into my pocket. i walked up to the mirror again. my eyes were bloodshot red and they were puffy.
i adjusted my tie one more time before seeing the key in the reflection of the mirror. i pondered for a moment before walking into my closet. i grabbed a backpack and started to shove clothes from my closet into it, before walking out and grabbing clothes from my drawers along with necessities and a passport. i walked out of my house and saw a car parked in front, just like jisoo said. i walked up to it and as i got closer the passengers side window was brought down to an opening, revealing a a man, who looked to be in his fifties maybe. he leaned over from his seat, "you sam?" he asked
"the one and only." i stated slumping my shoulders.
"you can hop in the back." he said putting the window back up, i saluted in response before getting into the backseat. As soon as he started up the car i spoke up, "were taking a detour to the airport instead." just as the words left my mouth, he looked through the rearview mirror and raised his eyebrows. "i was instructed to take you elsewhere."
"just leave me at the airport and ill tip you a benjamin." i stated hoping it would convince him; and it did. he gave me a smile and said, "you got it boss."
the closer we got to the airport the more guilty i felt. Jisoo might not forgive me for it but ive made up my mind, i cant be here anymore. i have to go.
once we got to the airport he put the car in park and then turned around to face me in the backseat. "i believe i was promised a tip." he stated.
i chuckled before pulling out my wallet and handing him a hundred dollar bill. "thanks for the ride." i said as i stepped out of the car.
i clutched onto my backpack as i walked into the airport. i'm really going to do this. i haven't left Korea my whole life and here i am, leaving. i got in line and waited till it was my turn.
"where you headed?" she asked not once looking away from her computer screen.
i looked up at all the boarding flights. first one that caught my eye was, Portland, Maine.
"Maine." i stated
"First or coach?" she asked still starring at her computer, typing.
"First" i said as i pulled out my wallet. she handed me my ticket, i paid and walked out to find a seat.
once i took a seat my phone started to vibrate in my pocket. i pulled it out and it read 'jisoo' i bit my lip and declined the call. once i ended the call i shut off my phone. one day i'll explain everything to her, just not now. i slouched in my seat as i took a look at my surroundings. what the hell am i doing?
