After a long thirteen hour trip, i made it to Portland International Jetport in Maine. i got my backpack and walked out of the airport.
i walked until i made it to a bus stop. i sat at a near by bench and waited for the next bus.
After twenty minutes of waiting the next bus finally came. once it came to a halt and the double doors swung open, i got up and got onto the bus, and took a seat.
i starred out the window as the bus started to move again. watched cars and bikes pass, counted trees and watched everything in my surroundings. it was so beautiful here.
once the bus came to it next stop i decided to get off.
i walked and passed building after building until i finally reached a hotel.
i walked in and paid for a week's worth stay. She gave me my key and told me to enjoy my day, i simply nodded in response before walking out and finding my room.
i placed my backpack down once i walked in.
it was a small room. had a mini kitchen, a bed a small window which was the only thing providing light inside. i walked towards the bed and threw myself onto it. i placed my hands over my face as i sighed. my chest still ached, and even after so much crying, tears started to stream down my cheeks once again. i lost everything all in the span of a few days. i felt so numb yet my entire body ached all at the same time. i shut my eyes to try and stop tears from falling.
when i opened my eyes it was dark now, and the moonlight brought little light through the small window now.
i got up and stretched my body out. i walked towards my backpack and unzipped it. i put my hand inside and started rummaging through it. once i felt my phone i grabbed it and pulled it out. i turned it on and then waited for it to fully turn on.
once it did i noticed multiple messages and missed calls, all from Jisoo of course.
part of me felt bad, i got up and left without any warning. i left her to take care of everything alone. i sighed as i cleared the messages and calls. i cant talk to her yet. i looked at the time and it read: 5:35am.
i might as well start my day early today.
i put my phone down and looked through my bag again this time looking for my toothpaste and toothbrush. once i found both i walked over to the restroom and proceeded to wash myself up.
i got dressed and walked out, if i'm going to be here for a week i might as well make the most of it. i decided to head to the mall first to find more appropriate clothing. It was the middle of October and the cold weather and rainy days were starting to settle in.
once i was done at the mall i decided to walk back to my hotel room. halfway there i noticed an Antiques shop on the other side of the street from where i was walking from. i stopped and looked both ways before walking towards the shop to look inside from the window.
From my first look inside i noticed a-lot of old furniture and old clocks. Interested, i decided to walk into the store. As soon as i opened the door a bell from above me rang indicating i was entering the small shop. which then made the person sitting behind the counter put their newspaper down to reveal their face. it was a old lady, she put down her newspaper and pushed up her glasses as she gave me a smile, "hello, welcome to Antiques and the unusual." she greeted me politely. i gave her a wave and a smile in response.
i walked in and started to look at the clocks on the shelves. as i was at the end of the shelve there was a typewriter. i walked over to it immediately and started to analyze it.
i cleared my throat as i turned over to look at the old lady who was looking at her newspaper again. "excuse me?" i asked getting her attention again. She put down her newspaper and looked over at me, "yes young lady?" she asked "is this a Hermes 3000?" i asked. she then got up from her seat and walked over to me. "ah yes! you know your typewriters." she stated giving me a smile. "how much?" i asked
i ended up walking out of that shop with the typewriter and a clock.
i walked back into my room and placed my stuff down on the bed.
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My week consisted of me fixing the clock i bought and walking around the small town. On my last day i woke up at around six in the morning. i showered, got dressed, and made myself breakfast and coffee. As i took the last bite of my toast i looked over at the table in the corner and i bit my lip as i looked at the typewriter. After pondering for a few minutes, i grabbed my coffee and walked over to the small table and took a seat. i let out a long breath as i started to type:
" Dear Jisoo,
First, i wanna start off by saying that i'm so sorry for leaving the way that i did. It was a spur of the moment decision. i couldn't stay there any longer. i feel like im drowning in sadness and i'm just so angry Jisoo. i'm so angry at mom and dad for lying to me, im so angry at ariana for breaking my heart, and mostly im angry at myself. how was i missing all the signs in front of me? how could i not notice what mom was going through? how could i not notice Ariana falling out of love with me? how could i be so stupid? was i too caught up in myself? i dont know what im doing Jisoo, but i feel like i need this. i need to get away for a while to get better. you did always say i should travel and get out there more. i came to Cape Elizabeth, in Maine. It's so beautiful here. i bought you a souvenir, it's only a keychain but i hope you'll like it. i'll be leaving probably tonight or early morning. i'll write to you soon, and i hope you can forgive me one day.
Love,
Your dumb little sister, Sam."
When i finished typing i grabbed my coffee and leaned back into the chair. i drank a big gulp of coffee and closed my eyes as i felt the hot liquid go down my throat. Any other feeling felt better than the ache in my chest. it hurt so bad, i don't think i've ever felt pain like this before. i felt like i was on autopilot. i felt like no matter what i was doing i was just dragging myself around. Nothing really gave me joy anymore. I took one last drink of my coffee and looked down at the empty cup. i got up and washed my cup before drying it and putting it my bag. i packed all my stuff into my backpack and grabbed my room key. i put on my backpack and walked out and went to return my key. she thanked me and i left. i walked around the town for a while before reaching a pier. i watched the birds as they flew and landed for a while before looking at all the boats.
as i was walking around and looking, a white and red narrowboat caught my eye. there was a large sign on the front of the boat that read: For Sale. this is perfect. i thought. There was a man Standing by the boat, smoking a cigarette.
"excuse me sir?" i asked as i walked over to him and the boat.
He let out a puff of his cigarette as he raised an eyebrow at me. "what can i do for you?" he asked taking another hit of his cigarette.
"how much?" i asked pointing at the boat. "nine thousand." he stated simply.
i bit my lip and thought for a moment. should i?
"i'll give seven thousand in cash." i stated attempting to bargain.
He thought for a moment before saying, "okay, deal."
i quickly excused myself to go to an automated teller machine. i walked to the closest one and as i got the money i needed out i noticed a Grocery store right across. i went in and bought groceries i would need for my trip and ran back to the pier.
The man was still standing there leaning against the rail smoking another cigarette when i got there.
when he noticed me gave me a small smile, "i went ahead and left you a full tank, she's all yours." He stated.
i handed him the money and thanked him. "you've ever drive one of these before?" he asked handing me the keys. "nope."
he let out a chuckle, "The manual is in the seating area near the tiller, good luck to you." he said before walking away.
I climbed onto the boat and started to organize my things as i got used to my new area.
it had a booth with a table, along with a tv and a small stove and fridge. the kitchen on this was much smaller than the one in the motel. it had a small couch and a small restroom; which consisted of a toilet, sink and shower.
i could definitely live in this for a while. i put my clothing into the wardrobe and the groceries in the cabinets and fridge. After adjusting my new living area i slipped out of my shoes and flopped onto the bed. it felt so good to lay down. i lifted my left arm to check my watch and it was now four in the afternoon. i thought for a moment and decided to stay here one more night before leaving. i sighed as i laid there. the only thing that could be heard was my breathing and the waves crashing near by. i took a deep breath as i thought about everything that happened within the last month. how the hell did i end up like this? will the pain ever subside?
As the boat rocked back and fourth, my eyelids started to become heavy.
