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Rylex - Relapse

Set in season 6 
-for Lucy, Thais and Kiya-
3rd person

Ryan sat on his bed, his hands intertwined with  Alex's, he was shaking and Alex couldn't help him, Ryan just wanted to be near Alex. He couldn't stand being away from him and when Alex had to go on a 4 day trip to London, Ryan felt like he would loose his mind, "p-please don't go.." Ryan mumbled, biting his lip softly. Alex looked at him and started into his gorgeous brown eyes, the skinny boy still shaking. "I can't leave you like this, not in this mental state." Alex breathed out, "what if something bad happened to you?" Alex gasped. Ryan smirked at the thought but quickly brushed it off, knowing Alex would notice and realise he was having a relapse, "y-you know, I'll be fine and it will be fun for you..!" Ryan smiled softly, it was fake but Alex smiled back and kissed Ryan's forehead. "I have no choice, I have to go.." Alex groaned, he felt a tug on his sleeve, "you want my hoodie?" Alex asked calmly. Ryan nodded and held onto Alex's hand tightly. "You can't put it on if your holding my hand, Ry." Alex smiled. Ryan on gripped his hand tighter, looking at Alex's eyes. Alex waved his hand in front of Ryan, "Ry? You zoned out." He laughed. Ryan flinched at the movement, Alex didn't know anything about Ryan's past. Only Mike and May-Li knew about whatever plagued him. "Are you sure you're okay with me leaving?" Alex questioned Ryan but he was only met with a small sigh. "Yes.. you will enjoy yourself and I'll be fine, plus it's like getting a day-off." Ryan exclaimed, placing a hand on Alex's thigh, his hand was shaking a lot. "Are yo-" Alex started but was cut of by Ryan "fine." He mumbled.

Ryan's POV:
It never gets easier to lie. 'I'm fine' is the worst lie you could say, it's the hardest to say and people don't believe you anyway but if you open up they'll walk away, they'll spit in your face and call you a freak, they'll push you to the ground and beat you up until you can't breathe, they'll break your heart into a hundred pieces and laugh when you let go. They'll watch as you hit the floor, lay their dead with a blade in your hand, they'll watch as you hang down from the ceiling, they'll laugh when the pills or poison bottle is laid on the counter spilling out.

Floss' POV:
Ryan was always sick. He was always tired, always throwing up and always saying "I'm fine." I'm not the oldest at Ashdene Ridge but I know what it's like when a resident of the  household goes crazy and starts acting strange and stops talking to anyone in the building (other than Alex). I asked him if he was sure he was okay and wouldn't stop until he screamed in my face or something along those kinds of lines, he didn't say anything. He didn't acknowledge my existence and then him and Alex went upstairs, I have to talk with Alex before he thinks Ryan is just being rude. "You look deep in thought!" May-Li laughed, pulling me out of my imaginary word, I looked at her "oh I am.." I grinned. She raised an eyebrow but to no avail I didn't budge on what I was thinking, she shrugged and walked away, picking up the washing basket. I laughed a little and then turned around, I need to find Finn to help me and I'm gonna need Joseph's smarts, as much as I'm smart myself, I want him to feel included and I'll find something for Taz to do.

-Time skip, in Floss and Taz's room.-

Floss' POV:
"So, Taz I need you to pretend to be hurt. And Joseph I need you to help plan how we'll get him down to notice and Finn, you can hurt yourself with Taz and I'll hide and pretend to be upset because Ryan knows that I only hide when I'm scared." I announced. Taz nodded, Finn went over to Taz and they walked downstairs, leaving me and Joesph to plan. "I think we should go through his closet to find something of value." I said, my eyes glistening with mischief. Joesph looked at me and shook his head slowly. "Why would we do that..?" Joesph asked. I shook my head and sighed. "Why wouldn't we?" I said raising an eye brow and smirking. Joesph sighed and then nodded. We walked into Ryan's room, surprisingly he wasn't in there. "Oh he's not in here, what a surprise!" I rejoiced, rolling my eyes. Joesph looked at me and walked straight into the room his hands tracing the walls, I walked in after him and I shut the door, carefully. We decided that the bed side draws would be the best bet and then the closet. Joesph pulled out the draw and rummaged through it, his eyes lit with pure terror.

(Tw:self harm/blood)
A small blade covered in old and fresh stains of blood, I stared in shock, what..? Why? How? I grabbed it and stuffed it into my pocket, I tugged Joesph's arm pulling him out of the room, and dragging him down to Alex. "Can I talk to you?" I asked him, trying not to seem scared as Ryan was sitting right next to him. "Sure?" He said and I looked at Ryan, I saw a flash of fear glooming in his eyes as he saw a shiny, sharp object in my pocket. He stood up. "Floss, I need to talk to you." Ryan said, desperation lacing his words. "Fine." I said simply, walking out of the room, up the stairs and into my room where he slammed the door and locked it. "Please.." He mumbled under his breath, "don't tell Alex.." he pleaded. I looked at him and smirked "it'll cost ya!" I stated with a proud grin, he smiled as well, though I could tell it was empty. "How much?" He asked with a tired expression, "£5 and a bracelet." I proudly giggled, he smiled at me and put his hand out, I took the knife out my pocket and carefully placed it in his hand. He gripped it really tight. He took a £5 note out of his pocket and placed on my bed, then he removed a bracelet from around his wrist and placed it onto the bed. "There!" He stated. I looked at it, once satisfied, I sent him back to his room or wherever he wants to go. I skipped out the room with the bracelet dangly loosely on my wrist, I then ran to the garden, to laugh at Taz and Candi-Rose play football.

-End-

JEEZ that took so LONG!
Word count: 1152