Forgotten Fire ✔⚫

私はあなたを永遠に愛します

I didn't want anything to do with anyone right now. I was just not in the mood, and yet here I was, in the kitchen, surrounded by my teammates, with a cupcake in the centre of the table with the words "KAI IS AMAZING" in the icing.

Honestly, I was just surprised Cole hadn't eaten it already.

"This is so sweet," I said with a forced choke. Forced because I was already cried out for that day, but I wanted to be nice. "I wish Jay were here to see this."

Then I thought I saw someone wearing blue behind all the others. I looked around them to see what it was, but no-one- or, nothing- was the culprit. I internally shrugged and focused back at the ninja, who were all smiling at me.

I sunk to the floor, despite wanting to be strong. My legs were just made of jelly, and I felt so bad and happy at the same time that I started dry sobbing into my hands.

"You guys are too great," I said to them. "I really don't deserve this, not after all we went through. I was always so strong for you, and now this little thing is making me sad, and I feel weak and useless." I said, sniffling. "It's too much. You don't deserve me, I'm just a baby. Crying over something like this."

My friends knelt to my level and wrapped their arms around me.

You're not weak or useless," Lloyd assured me. Not that it worked. "If it were Akita, I'd be crying too."

Cole, thankfully, had something that helped just a little more. "I know what you're going through. When my mum died, I was depressed, but I got through it. You will, too. It may hurt now, but someday you'll get over it."

"Just remember what I told you the other day," Nya said, "Jay'd want you to be happy and smiling and laughing. Imagine how he'd feel if he knew you were blowing off everything because of a loss."

I smiled a little and played a song in my head.

何が起こっても、私はあなたを決して忘れません。 私は永遠にあなたを愛します、たとえ何かが私たちに起こったとしても、私たちは決して離れることはありませんあなたの精神は私の中に住んでいます my spirit lives in you.

(Spelling:
Nani ga okotte mo, watashi wa anata o kesshite wasuremasen. Watashi wa eien ni anata o aishimasu, tatoe nanika ga watashitachi ni okotta to shite mo, watashitachi wa kesshite hanareru koto wa arimasen. Anata no seishin wa watashi no naka ni sunde imasu, my spirit lives in you.
English:
I'll never forget you, no matter what happens. I will love you forever and ever, even if something may happen to us we'll never be apart.
Your spirit lives within me,
My spirit lives in you.)

I played that again, and it did help a lot. Me and JJ made that song shortly after we got engaged, and we'd sing that in our room when we got bored. I also sang it to help JJ fall asleep, as he liked listening to lullabies.

And so did I, what's the matter?

Anyway.

I didn't realize how long I had been there, because the others had left after they noticed I was occupied. I looked to the front room, where they were sitting on the chair and floor, discussing something.

I strained my ears to hear them, but I couldn't make out the words because they were whispering, so I gave up and went back upstairs to my room.

I reached the door and asked myself, Should I do this? I thought about it and decided I may as well try, so I did. I opened the door and sat on the bed, and started quietly singing the song.

"何が起こっても、私はあなたを決して忘れません。 私は永遠にあなたを愛します、たとえ何かが私たちに起こったとしても、私たちは決して離れることはありません
あなたの精神は私の中に住んでいます my spirit lives in you."