Painfully Aware with So Much to Learn

Chapter Six: Hikari

Duckbutt POV

'What the hell, it's like the dobe was a whole new person' I thought as I turned to face Sakura, who was giving me heart eyes.

"Sasuke-kun, now that Naruto-baka left with his stupid boyfriend why don't we go on a date!" She said with all the excitement in the world.

That sparked a thought.

'Well yeah he was talking about Shikamaru all morning, but they couldn't be...'

'NO'

'That dumb dobe is MINE, how dare that shadow jerk lay a finger on what's mine'

'If those two are together Nara will PAY'

Subconsciously I turned on my sharingan, startling Sakura.

"S-Sasuke-kun, what's wrong?" She whined, shuffling closer to me.

I went after the dobe, making sure Shikamaru didn't pull anything, sneaking behind them and hiding my presence. I followed them to the Inuzuka's, where there was a quick checkup, before they headed back out, this time the kit was in a tiny light blue blanket, still huddling close to Naruto. It was a new side of Naruto that I'd never seen before, he was soft and gentle, the opposite of how he was before. But then my suspicions were confirmed. Shikamaru had said something I couldn't quite make out, but then Naruto smiled. It wasnt the stupid smile he always wore, it put every other smile in the world to shame, it was as bright as the sun and twice as warm.

But Naruto wasn't smiling at me.

Why would he?

He was smiling at him, someone smart with a family and a purpose that wasn't fear driven.

He didn't have the issues I had. He was happy and had a life ahead of him, he was loyal and free. Naruto needed freedom, I've been watching him since we were kids, beaten bloody in alleyways and I never even tried to help, I ran because the sight was too familiar. Picked on him because then he'd have to notice me. I never even knew how gentle and kind he could be. I didn't want to. You've never ceased to show your emotions when you need to, but even when I thought I was going to die, I couldn't even express how much I love you Naruto, settling on 'don't die'. And I was so mad at the end of the chunin exams, you were beaten to a bloody pulp by Gaara and you still cried for him, showed your emotions to the equally beaten boy and dragging yourself with your chin to make sure Sakura and I were safe. I almost killed that boy for making you hurt so much, but it was me who made you fight too hard. I've made you hurt so much.

As I continued to spiral into my own emotions, I forgot I had to keep masking my chakra, and I was caught.

"Sasuke teme if you wanted to see the kit you could've asked" Naruto hollered to the tree I was hiding in, oblivious as usual.

I was gonna respond but then Naruto jumped the branch I was on, careful of the tiny bundle. "Say, wanna name him?" Naruto said in a soft yet cheerful voice that made my heart ache.

Looking down at the orange fluff I couldn't help but be reminded of the blonde before me. Suddenly the kit's eyes opened to reveal an all too familiar piercing sky blue. Tiny high pitched yips filled my ears as the kit seemed so excited for no reason. It was quite familiar. Naruto seemed completely dumbfounded by the blue eyes and loud personality.

"Hikari" I muttered.

"Okay, Hikari it is." Naruto said in a fond voice that made my chest ache.

"You could never tell that just an hour ago his parents were killed right in front of him..." Naruto muttered to himself, but I just barely heard him. I looked into his blue eyes, which told more than eyes should. But then Nara caught my eye, he had the same fond expression that I've had myself, time and time again looking at the same blonde goofball using one tiny finger to play with Hikari. I knew I couldn't have Naruto, I didn't have a chance, but it still hurt, so bad.