☏Up's and downs☏Jash Rossler☏

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J⃨a⃨d⃨e⃨n⃨'s⃨ P⃨.O⃨.V⃨

When we got back to the house, Josh was so happy. He had a big smile on his face, and his giggle, god, it was adorable. I literally almost kissed him at the restaurant, but he didn't notice. He makes me feel different...

"Hey lovey doves! How was your Date?"
Bryce smirks, grabbing Addison's hand and helping her up off the couch.

"W-What date? We were just hanging out."
I stuttered. Why the hell did I stutter?!
"Yeah, we were just... hanging out."
Josh said, looking at me weirdly
"Ah huh, well, we'll let you to get back to it, then."
He smirked and walked up the stairs.
"Stupid Bryce."
Josh mumbled under his breath.
"C'mon, let's go upstairs and film a YouTube video for your channel."
I smiled
"Okay, Yeah."
He ran his hand through his hair while he was walking up the stairs and into our room.

*Camera starts filming*

"What is up guys, it is me, Josh Richards and welcome back to my channel! Or if your new, welcome to my channel. Today I have a special guest joining me, and it's Jaden Hossler! You may know him from his dope music, or from his tiktok account. Anyways, today we are going to be reading fan fictions about us!"
After he finished the intro, we were up and running. A little while in to the video, Quinton and Ant joined us.

"Alright, Anthony and I have some, work to do."
Quinton said, getting up out of his chair and walking out of the room.
"S-So, I'll catch up with you guys later, eheh..."
Ant said, a wild blush spread across his face.
"See ya ant."
Jaden said, patting his shoulder

*Camera stops filming*

"Thanks Jaden. That was fun."
Josh smiled. All of a sudden, I felt butterflies in my stomach. His smile makes me happy.
"O-oh, uhm Yeah. No problem"
I smiled nervously and nodded
"Well, ima go ahead and start editing and stuff, you can go ahead and shower first."
He sighed and grabbed his laptop
"Okay, good luck"
I walked into the bathroom and shut the door. God, he is so cute and perfect and adorable.

J⃨o⃨s⃨h⃨'s⃨ P⃨.O⃨.V⃨

I'm going to die. I thought spending time with Jaden was going to make me feel better about myself, about being gay.
But so far, it hasn't helped one bit. I feel so... covered. Like, I can't breathe. I'm a closeted gay, and I hate it. I love Jaden Hossler, but I can't admit it. I just can't. I might as well go into a dark place. Yeah, I like that idea. I get up and change my boxers and shorts into all black. Then I grab an all black hoodie from my side of the closet. I haven't worn one of my own hoodies in forever, and now I know why. My hoodies don't have the scent. The comforting sent that makes me feel safe, warm, and happy. Whatever. I pull the hoodie over my head and post the YouTube video. I then climbed into bed, plugged my phone into the little red charger, and fell asleep.