Always & Forever

Chapter 37

This is just here 🌚

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Niy POV

"AND WE PULLING UP THREE BLACK TRUCKS INNIS BITCH!" Lay screamed.

"AHHHH!" I stuck my tongue out.

(somebody commented that had me crying at 3 inna morning😭)

"Y'all so damn ghetto." Jay chuckled smoking.

We rented a cabana on the beach today.

"Looking real fuckable shordy." Sosa smacked Ari's ass.

"Ewww I'm removing myself." I shook my head going back to the cabana.

"Hellloooo." I sat next to Jay.

"Ye?" He looked at me weird.

"I can't say hey?" I titled my head to the side.

"What we doing Niy? Not even tryna argue witchu right na." He laid back.

I got up and straddled him.

"I don't know Jay, I don't. But I do know I'm tired of us acting like this. It ain't us." I shrugged.

"You done wit me?" He bit his lip. I shook my head.

"Walk wit me somewhere." He tapped my thigh.

I got up and stretched, following him.

"Ouh they going to fuckkk." Lay whispered to Shae.

"Hush." I rolled my eyes.

"Come on." Jay held his hand out. I grabbed it and he started walking towards the boardwalk.

"You want anything?" We passed by a whole bunch of restaurants.

"No I'm okay." He nodded his head brought me to a swing.

"C'mere." He nodded his head sitting down. I walked next to him and sat.

"Why?" I looked at him "Was she better than me? Did she have something I didn't?"

"Nah she ain't have shit on you." He shook his head.

"I wasn't thinking, I was high off my ass. You ain't deserve that." I put my head down.

"Imma just tell it straight" He turned towards me "This ain't no excuse but it was my Pops death day. The one time I needed him, he wasn't here. My bro was in the hospital, and it was on me to find the niggas responsible. I thought you blamed me for getting Zay shot, and I felt like I failed you. I'm sorry cause I did fail you, you was right by my side through it all and I failed you. Niy the way I feel about you is scary. On my worst days you make them better, you the real dedication of ride or die. I apologize I ever put us in this position. If it ain't you I don't want. If I'm not knees with a ring for you I don't want it, if you're not the one carrying my kids I don't want, if you're not the one I wake up to every morning I don't want it. I love you with everything in me, and that ain't never gon change. I know you don't trust me mama, but I wanna try. Please don't throw away us yet." He picked my head up.

"I'm sorry for making you feel like that, I never blamed you." He wiped my tear.

"Don't apologize it's all on me."

"Stop saying that" I moved to his lap "There's factors to every situation, my immaturity held us back and I'm sorry."

"I love you Aniya."

"I love you more Jay'shawn." I hugged him.

"I need you to learn to trust me, I know it's gonna take time but we're never gonna get anywhere if you don't. Let's go home handle Von, and work on us." He looked me in my eyes.