"No one would ever understand "
Honestly,I don't understand myself.
I don't know what the fuck I am
I feel like no one understand as me
Which I understand because I don't even understand what's going on in my head myself.
I feel like I'm numbed by everything in this world
Well not exactly everything
But more focus on love
I don't feel loved by anyone
It's hard to understand cause I know that there are people out there who love me and care for me
But yet I don't feel anything
I just feel like I'm numbed by feeling any happiness at all
Maybe I'm just spoilt
Maybe I'm too complicated
Maybe I don't deserve anything
Maybe I'm just hard to understand
I don't know what's wrong with me
The unknown numbness I felt was like a devil
The devil
he sucked the love out of me
He used his beautiful claws
he stuck his fingers into my heart
He grabbed it
Squished the life out of it
As I watched the blood trickle down his claws
Drip
By
Drip
Drop
By
Drop
The blood gushing out of my chest
Sprinkling into the air
Firing droplets of blood flying like shooting stars
From then on I knew
I don't think I will ever feel loved
I have been told a lot when I was younger that no one would ever love me
I always thought it might be true
But now I'm sure
Beyond my eyes
Infront of me
Out of my control
My emotions engulf me
As I pulled and tugged onto my hair
Screaming and mourning as tears began flowing down my eye sockets onto my cheeks
Now this is just the beginning
The beginning of a complicated story
Into the unknown mind
That no one
No one
would ever understand.
