The past few weeks have been so fun, my knee is feeling better. But there have been times that it does give me trouble. Actually seeing the boys perform is so surreal. It feels like every night I watch them it's my first time. I absolutely loved hanging out with them also.
We haven't been able to do a whole lot because of their busy schedule and my injuries but they have taken me on little tours of the cities we go to. Meeting fans is another perk. All of them are so amazing and so dedicated I love to see their smiling faces, they may not be my fans but somehow the way I feel about them is kind of how I imagine the boys feel towards them.
Now remember the whole reason harry is preoccupied with his time? That Tiffany girl? Yeah they are dating now and she is always hanging around. So when I mean the boys take me out places I mean Louis, Liam and Niall. Since Zayn left and all. ( I had to, sorry) but I was totally okay with it because those three boys were enough for me.
They have helped me get over harry being in my mind. Sure there is still a little crush on him but now he doesn't flood my mind with thoughts of his intoxicating self. Louis and I are probably the closest, we do everything together. He took me to a old book store and bought me some books to read for the flights or at night or whatever.
But a few moments ago I was having one of my worst, if not the worst, in counter with Tiffany. I am stuffed in a corner that she backed me up into and is getting all up close and personal with me.
"Listen here you skank. I know what you're trying to do and I won't let it happen. Harry is mine and there i nothing you can do about it." With that she stormed off and here I am contemplating life because of that stupid butt munching hackwack. What I don't understand is why she feels so threatened.
For one I have done nothing to get in her way of having Harry. All I want is for him to be happy. Even if he is blinded by that two faced cunt cake who looks like a clown in clothes meant for a ten year old. Seriously, one look at her and you would think she is heading to her designated street corner to continue pursuing her life long dream of being a prostitute.
The second reason is their relationship is none of my business and I don't want it to be. I don't want to see him get hurt but I don't want to be in the way either so I make it my mission to stay clear of the sickening throw up worthy things they do. Which is pretty much everything, I'm not just talking the sexualls which I don't want to think about either.
The boys are off getting ready and that tone deaf frog kisser is off doing God knows what. Thankfully not bothering me and once again out of many times I am left with my thoughts. Which if you knew anything about me is probably the worst thing that could possibly happen. It is the fastest and harshest and easiest way I self destruct myself and unlove myself. Which is a point I was never really at.
With that girl on my ass all the time and all those subtle things she used to do and say to me hurt but if she steps it up more than what she did today there might be a big problem here. Who knows if it's the fact that she has found my weakness or the fact that she feels empowered over me. She thinks she can tear me down and maybe she can but I have to stay positive and show her she can't. Be the survivor and fighter that I am.
I walk down the hallway in my own thoughts and bump into someone. Being the lucky girl I am bump into my favorite clown.
"Skank." She harsh fully mutters as she continues walking not giving me a second glance.
With how this day has headed up that will probably be my new nickname from her and seeing the look in her eyes makes me wonder what horrible things she has in store for me. Not wanting to over think it and make my anxiety spike I try to distract myself with a book and go deep into my own works of make believe and characters I wish existed. Or at least a world I could live in that is different and better than this one.
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I am so sorry I haven't updated in so long this is a really crappy chapter and I am sorry for that. I will try to update soon but I have summer school and my birthday this Friday but I hope to update with a better chapter by then if not I will for sure try to have it done by early next week.
Thank you all for being patient with me I love you all you're the best.
Stay unique my lovelies! :)
