Falling Harry POV [larry fic]

Don't Call Me Baby Again

Louis finally says "Are you there baby?"

Suddenly anger is jolting through my body, completely forgetting what I had planned to say.

Instead I begin to say "Don't call be baby again, you've got your reasons"

As I wait for his reply I begin to feel more and more guilty. I Wish I could just say sorry.

"Excuse me?" Louis says "Fine I'll remember this Harry, you've obviously got YOUR reasons".

I'm surprised by Louis' tone and answer considering he's never used a rude or aggressive tone toward me ever... I wonder why that is?

"BECAUSE HE LOVES YOU, YOU IDIOT" I scream at myself inside my thoughts.

I now realize I hear crying from the other end and another wave of guilt rushes through me, I want to say I miss him and everything about him, his lips, his wit, his funny tricks,

"This is it" I think to myself.

So of course me being who I am I still don't apologize, instead I say "It was hard for me to go home, to be so lonely".

I still can hear Louis sobbing on the phone and suddenly he says "You're the one that did this not me, I didn't even come home tonight because of you" and I hear the phone hang up.

I throw my phone at the wall quite forcefully having all of these emotions rushing through me. I realize what I've done to our relationship and start uncontrollably sobbing, while chugging the rest of the whiskey hoping it would numb this pain that I feel.

This is not how I meant for things to go but I can't take it back. I can't unpack the baggage he took. Louis was probably all alone at a hotel he's never been to before alone, scared, and hurt because of me I think to myself. That night I went to bed crying, in dirty clothes, and a bottle of opened whiskey laying next to me, hoping Louis would come back to me and hold me in his arms again.

"This can't be the end" I think to myself.

The last words I think while drifting in and out of sleep "What am I now? What if I'm someone you don't want around? I'm falling again"