dream journal || amvesia

rant from a couple weeks ago

I'm a Christian and I fucking HATE the fact that other Christians are making us look bad and are so bias. I hate when I go to church and they say shit about how gays are bad and they're corrupting our society when in real life they're the nicest people I will ever meet. I'm a pastor's daughter and I'm straight af but I feel like I can't stand for things that I stand for publicly because of the image I'm supposed to portray to the world. ya I'm straight but I see some girls and I'm like "wow she's pretty, if I was lesbian I would so tap that." and like I'm not sexually attracted but that doesn't mean they're not pretty. and who know one day there might be a girl that makes me feel special and makes me feel better than any guy would so if that does happen then I'm not gonna say that being attracted to that girl is wrong because it's not. every day I hear about gay and/or transgenders that commit and when I read about why I just feel so bad because it's usually 80% of the time because of some Christians that can't accept the fact that they don't act the "traditional" way they're supposed to act. and when they have signs that say like "Jesus hates gays" or "God hates gays" like I'm pretty sure that gays are humans and God loves everyone so in reality they're not being good Christians because they don't know something that they should have learned in fucking preschool. I understand if you were raised in a Christian family and you can't change your mind on the way you see things, but only if you're 50 yrs or older. bc I know that times back then were different and it was seen as bad but news flash THEY'RE HUMANS TOO. reading about leelah alcorn today made me so disgusted ((her suicide note is on tumblr, type in her name in google and there's a link and read it)) and I hate when people say it's just a phase because there's so many gay and transgender people that waited YEARS for the law to change so they could get married to their lover. and you can't say that being gay or trans is something new from this century because go and look in some history things and there's a shit load of people that were bi and gay and a bunch of kings and rulers and military leaders. Back then they let gays run their kingdom and look at us now. this is reason #627726373838 why I hate people. if guys like having poop on their penis and girls like putting their fingers and tongues into another girls vagina then let them it's the way they like to live and love so bye there's nothing wrong with that. people have been doing it since the beginning of time ‼️