Pretend (ON HOLD)

IX.XI

"Someone? Anyone? Please Help! My wife needs help! They're not gonna make it! HURRY HURRY HURRY!" I felt myself being lifted with a kiss to the lips.

"She Is Loosing A Lot Of Blood. We Need To Get Her To The Operation Room Immediately!" Someone yelled.

"You're gonna be o..."

Those Were The Last Words Heard Then I Blacked Out. When I Opened My Eyes All I Saw Was A White Light. No Sound. Then I started screaming. I stopped when I heard little footsteps running. I couldn't figure out if they were running towards me or not. I looked up and saw a little boy running and smiling, screaming I LOVE YOU! I was confused, but I screamed I Love You back. I tried to grab a hold of His hand but He was fading away, getting smaller. And smaller. And smaller. Until He was gone!

"Why? Why? Why?" I heard someone yell/cry.
"Why? Lord? Do You Not Love Me? I know I Didn't Give MaMa Back Her 3 Dollars, But Did You Have To Take Away The Love Of My Life? Mother Of My Children? My Wife? And To Add The Whip On Top My Child? Both Of Them? I Gave Her My All! She Was My Everybody Thing! We Were Newlyweds! Got Married In Your Name! And You Just Took Them From Me!"
I didn't understand. I wasn't dead. Im right here. Or was I? I heard a voice, that sounded like a female, asking the other Person to leave. I think that it was a male. I heard very few noises then a door being closed. I guess she left! I tried to open my eyes, but they wont let me see. I tried for what seemed like a thousand times, but it was no use.

I guess by now it was the next day cause I heard the same female voice say, "Good morning!" I tried to say it back but well u know! Then she said if I could hear her I have to move a part of my body. Well she tickled my foot and I moved my eyebrows. Then I heard the door shut. Did I do something bad? Why does she keep on leaving me? At least the other dude had the respect to sag something other than a sentence! Uurrgghh! Then I heard two pairs of feet walking into the room.

"Well, She Is Responsive. And Her Heart Rate Is Going Good. She Is Just Not Opening Her Eyes. I Think She Could Open Her Eyes If She Wanted To"

"So You Trying To Tell Me That She Is Okay? Even With What Happened?"

"Yh. It Surprised Me That She Recovered So Well So Fast!" Then I heard the door close and feet move! Then I heard the voice that was there the day before.

"Baby Open Your Eyes For Me! I See Those Beautiful Eyes Of Yours. I Wanna See Your Smile. The One That Can Make Angels Cry. I Wanna Kiss Your Lips. The Lips That Touch My Lips That Can Melt A Mountain. We Will Get Through This But I Need You To Open Your Eyes! Please!?!" He grabbed my hand, kissed it and squeezed it. I tried to open my eyes, I really did. But only my finger moved. I heard him sigh move his hand. I guess I disappointed him. 😔.

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I opened my eyes and checked the time. 2:54 a.m. Uurrgghh! I woke up and went into the bathroom and didn't even acknowledge Issa, who was using the toilet. I brushed my teeth and washed my face and just looked at myself in the mirror as Issa came up behind me and hugged me. He kissed all my tears away, tears that I didn't know that was flowing. We stood there and just held each other. We walked back into the room, laid in bed, and watched old videos. Videos of our wedding, when Isa was born, family reunions, birthdays, etc.

When I woke up, Again, I walked downstairs to see Issa & Isa eating cereal. I walked up to both of them and gave them each a kiss on the cheek and got some cereal as well. Silence would best describe this morning. After we ate, bathed, and got dressed in our outfits, we headed out. That was when the first words were said.

(a/n: when in convos, I-Issa, Yn- Your Name, M-Isa/Marie. Also depending on who's P.O.V. it is, I might just use.'Me' to refer to the person who is speaking.)

I- "Babe Are You Good?"
Me- "Im Okay, I Just Wish He Was Here So We Wouldn't Have To Be Doing This. When I Look At The Picture Of Him And Look At You It's Like Twins. When I Think Of Loosing Him It Is Like Im Loosing You And I Would Never Want That To Happen. So You Know."
I- "Yh. But It's Was God's Plan To Ta..."
Me- "God's Plan To Fucking Take Him?! Smh! Yh! Yh! Come Again!"
I- "You Need To Chill With That!"
Me- "With What? Huh? The Truth!?"

By now we got to the spot and was walking towards the area that I HATE going to. Every year we come here its like a good and bad thing. It's Bad cause I gotta be reminded of this shit over again, but then it is a good thing cause I get to talk to him and let go!

As I read the Headstone, I shed a tear!

It read:

IX.XI
Ishmael Thompson
May 11, 2014 - September 11, 2014

Him thou for He hears, and spirit with spirit can meet- closer is He than breathing, and nearer than hands and feet.

He will be missed even thou he was not known!
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I just watched it. I couldn't do nothing, but watch it. I didn't wanna cry in front of Isa so I let Issa do what he do and he took Isa back to the car after she kissed and hugged the headstone. That caused a smile and a tear to form in my face.

What it said was true, no one knew him. No one saw him except me. I mean they took pictures for us to see, but I saw him. I see him. I know him.

I will forever remember the date of
September 11, 2014
A.K.A.
IX.XI

I am really proud of myself for doing this chapter. I love the love and appreciate it very much! I think im gonna fall in love with this book! 😍😘🌺🙏