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tatims pov
blood boiled in my veins. who does this girl think she is? invading my personal space; asking me if i'm safe? fucking bitch.
"am i safe?" i scoffed angrily looking into her red eyes. i noticed she shifted her weight differently, registering that i'm not so happy with her question.
"what the fuck is that supposed to mean, yes i'm fucking safe." i quickly walked away not giving her time to form an appropriate response back.
i saw zion leaning against his car that was parked on the race track, next to the black dodge. nervously, i made my way over to him, in hopes his presence would calm me down.
"yo babe, just in time," zion pushed off his car and opened his arms, bringing me in for a hug. "i want you to be next to me when i beat some ass."
breathing in his scent i relaxed between his hold of me. i was also very cold, so it helped. zions not really the most affectionate person, it catches me off guard when he decides he wants to touch me. especially around an audience.
"okay," i quickly said in his chest. the hug didn't last but 15 seconds, and when he let go sadness washed over me for a split second.
shivering my ass off, i waited not so patiently lightly bouncing on my toes. zion was checking his car to make sure everything was safe to go, with extra help from tilli, hitting the tires with his boot. i laughed at the small effort he put into it, which caught his attention because he shot a small smirk towards my direction.
i shook my head and looked away, landing on someone's eyes that were looking right back at me. bright blue eyes i may say. very jealous, nothing compared to my dark, practically black eyes.
she smiled very faint at me causing my cheeks to heat up. i'm not worthy enough for this girl to be looking at me. ah i gotta hide.
i slid my feet on the cement scooting my way towards the back of zions car where him and tilli were.
"hey i have a task for you," zion said turning his body to face mine. i raised my eyebrows and hummed in response.
"go sit in my seat, and turn the car on. roll the window down. then i want you to step on the breaks, and i'll yell at you the rest once you get in."
"alright," i answered back nodding my head. i brushed past him keeping my eyes low because right next to his door, there was billie and her other friend from earlier.
i kept repeating in my head what zion had instructed me to do. lowkey forgetting because i'm slow and i'm crazy anxious. sometimes i wish i had a button on me that i could press anytime i wanted to be invisible. i'd neva stay anxious.
the door to his car wouldn't open. which could only mean one thing! it was freakin locked. and that makes me have to walk all the way back to him, and then all the back here just to face more anxiousness and im not bout dat. so i'll just die now.
i whinnied wiggling the handle when i heard a small laugh behind me. i tried to ignore it but i saw in the window, a reflection of who i was just trying to avoid.
"i think it's locked." she said letting out another laugh. i rolled my eyes at myself for being dumb and doing exactly what i told myself not to do.
draw attention.
i turned around and smiled awkwardly. "yeahh..." i sighed tripping over a weird, i think laugh.
"what the fuck are doing talking to my girlfriend," zion, out of no where, bursted between us. i flinched at his tone and the sudden grip on my wrist. his face was flustered and angry. i was scared. i hate when he gets mad. and for this reason, i have no clue as to why he is. which makes me more anxious.
"dude, chill," billie scooted back lifting her hands up in defense. my eyes darted between the both of them trying to read the situation.
"why didn't you do what i said?" zion spoke harshly pushing me to the side while he went to open the door.
"it was locked" i said quietly, placing my feet correctly on the ground to regain balance after he'd just shoved me.
he sighed shuffling the keys in his pocket to unlock it, leaving the pit of my stomach to feel hollow. i cant determine if it's embarrassment i feel or self hatred. maybe flight or fight signals going off. either way i pissed zion off and i won't hear the end of it for a while. i am not looking forward to us being alone.
i looked to see billie watching me. i couldn't make out what look she was giving, but something about her stare made me want to run into her tiny arms hidden by material twice her size and sob. she looked so warm.
shaking off my thoughts i focused my attention on zion opening the door and motioning for me to hop in, so i did as directed.
"ight just listen to what i say," he spoke with no tone holding the side of the door open. "can you do that? or do i have to do this shit myself?" zion finished speaking more aggressively.
i wanted to back talk and tell him he can do it himself since it's his fucking car and tell him to calm the fuck down, but of course i didn't. i'll never speak up for myself.
only nodding, i turned my head to face the wheel holding back the tears that were starting to swell up. he closed the door pretty hard causing me to slightly jump and scare the tears straight outta my eyes. i'm an emotional mess tonight.
after finishing up checking his lights and shit i climbed over to my side. i hadn't dared to look where billie was last standing after, all what happened. i'm humiliated. at the same time she probably doesn't care about me. considering she doesn't know me and between, whatever feud that's going on with zion and her, i'm pretty positive, billies intentions towards me aren't anything but negative.
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