And there he was...

Where Do I Begin

I have never felt so accomplished in my life. It beats my life 17 years ago....who would have thought. Let's see...how do I explain.

First of all I have been married twice. I finally came to a realization that both marriages didn't contain the "in love" factor. My first husband, Josh, whom I met on Valentine's day, reminded me of Steve from the original 90210; only not as tall and difficult for him to express any form of emotion. I believe he loved me but was not "in love" with me. I know this because when he decided to pop the question we were at a jewelry store he visited before this day and this time, allowed me to see rings, gesturing to one that he already picked out. I liked it but....all of a sudden he says "well I guess I can ask you if you'll marry me". I said yes, but should I have said yes and then because he couldn't get credit, we got the ring on my credit! Duh!!!!! Wedding day arrives, I am full of excitement and yet uncertain for as I was about to walk down the aisle my thoughts were "am I gonna get a divorce?" As we exchanged vows there were no tears of joy just the scripted vows we practiced.

He traveled a lot for his job, mind you he left me alone only to hang out with his friends for company, even referring me to go out with his friend Paul, who would take care of me. Take care of me in what way???? You already know what I was thinking.....then suddenly I meet a friend of Paul's who became someone in my life, with all the right moves to accommodate my lonely heart. His name was Rick. He at first wooed me, giving me pleasure far greater than Josh....meaning he truly hit the g spot every time...and boy I LOVED riding him. He carried his steed well. I did divorce Josh and then suddenly fell under Rick's spell, a spell to a very dark side, basically my own Star Wars story where I never imagined that I would ever be. Soon his wooing became moments of physical, mental and emotional abuse adding drugs which I wish I never tried in my life. Then one-night of passion, maybe the last best love making ever and is where I conceived my son. Several years later I married him at the courthouse by a judge dressed as an elf going to a Christmas party after she married us! Boy, what was I thinking here...for the sake of my son to have two parents? More abuse occurred over and over and drugs weren't the way to get me through this. Everything I ever owned was gone and I knew the safety of my son and myself had to change....Rick got arrested for a warrant and as I heard the news I looked out the window seeing light beamed down from above, a feeling that my mother was giving me a sign to get out now! I gathered whatever was important and with the clothes on my back and my son, we got a ride to the train station and NEVER looked back...

Needless to say I got my divorce with an injunction attached to the final decree. Now I am ready to take on the world.

Being a real estate agent has been a passion of mine for so long. People tell me that I have such people skills...yes but somedays I beg to differ. My company was touring construction sites which entailed commercial and residential. My boss encouraged me to escape on this adventure as to gain more knowledge of both worlds: commercial or residential. Since I am in a probationary period with lots to learn, I believed in this opportunity. The company chose Los Angeles. The first building in its beginning stages had lots of construction men around. As we toured further, the sight of these men brought out in me a feeling that I have not felt in a very long time. One gentleman who was speaking to a suit guy seemed out of the ordinary. He had black hair, slight mustache, and liked waving his arms. I overheard the suit guy tell this ordinary guy that he has to make a fair financial decision. I also heard the ordinary guy's name was Randy. In that moment Randy saw me, and really stared at me, and I locked eyes with his.