Roommates

Chapter 6

It's been weeks since I've seen Katie. She comes over to get her things when I'm at school. I know this because every time I get home, there are always some crumbs on the island and she either drops a bra or underwear on her way out.

After school today I cleaned up the mess she made and got working on my homework. For homework, I have to write an essay on why I think chemicals are a good/bad thing to use in fields and how they can be ruined.

I have so much to work on. I have 2 tests to study for, the essay and 4 projects. The only class that is ok to deal with is photography. I can zone out and focus on what I love.

My parents don't like how I'm going to school for photography. They would prefer that I become a doctor, a lawyer, some high paying job like that. My brother is a fan of football, but he has to focus on getting good grades for his medical degree.

My grandparents raised my mother and father like they were the perfect little children. They believed that if you don't succeed in life, you should die a terrible death. I never went with my mother and father when we visited them. My brother always wanted out like me, but he didn't want to upset them even more.

They were very happy that I got into college, but it went away in a second when they found out what I was going to be studying. Every day they text, email or call me asking how my grades are and if I'm focusing on school and not boys or other fun things.

I haven't told them that I like girls, my brother knows because he caught me photoshopping myself and my crush, Sophia, into wedding dresses. 

I sat at my desk for hours, with my fingers on the keyboard, waiting for my brain to think of something to begin my essay with. Nothing...

I got up, walked to the bathroom and slid onto the floor. I cried and cried. 

Someone touched my arm.

"Please....don't hurt me," I said through tears.

"Maria! I'm here. No one is going to hurt you."

I fell into her open arms and cried even more.

"Shhhh....it's ok. I'm here now."

"I'm so sorry for yelling at you. I should have never said any of that."

"It's my fault. I wasn't being honest to you."

She patted my head and picked me up. My arms still wrapped around her neck, we went to the living room and she placed me on the couch.

"Can I ask what's wrong?"

"I-I-I can't be the perfect daughter anymore. I can't exceed their expectations. It's too much."

My whole body felt numb. The tears kept coming and coming. Katie got up and walked away.

She came back and cleared her throat. I slowly opened my eyes and saw her holding her guitar.

Tell me something you never told before
Before I walk through the door, I adore you, I adore you
I do, I do
Smile with me and cry with me
I won't ever tell a soul
Hold my hand
I'll squeeze it back

And I'll never let go 

I sat there listening to her.

Never give up, never look back
I won't give up I'll keep on trying
Dry your tears up, all your crying
Cannot fix me up my darling
Fix me up my darling
Fix me up my darling
Fix me up my darling

She looked up at me and smiled. I smiled back. 

"I love that song."

"Me too. I sang that song because I really do adore you. I will fix you up."

I slid down onto the floor with her and laid my head on her shoulder. 

"Why did you come back? I thought you hated me and your dating Oliver."

"I broke up with him. You were right, I didn't love him. I-I-I love you."

"I love you too Kaite. I have ever since you came over and we had that meeting."

She grabbed my neck, pulled me close and our lips crashed into each other. The kiss feels wonderful, it's like they are a perfect match for each other.

"I will never leave you, ever."

We held each other for what feels like an eternity. I just hope she doesn't leave me when I tell her about how I puke out my food when I eat.

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Fix Me Up-Sabrina Carpenter and Fin Argus(2020)