My Philophobia || Yoongi FF

t w e n t y - o n e

 "I miss you call me by my name..," Your heart skipped a beat. There's a long silence between you two.

"I want you to comfort me like always..," Your hands slowly reach for his back. You hesitated but your heart leads you to go through this far... You soften your hand and gently rub his back. "It's okay..." The three words felt like a feather on your mouth but feel like a stone in your heart

"You know I didn't mean to do that. I don't have any choice but to. Why can't he just accept it? And now he puts everyone in danger..." Your hand stopped hearing his word "I don't want to lose another person who is so precious to me. Like how I lost you..,"

"Yoongi... What are you talking about?" His drunk words make you confuse but also wants to know more about himself

"I've been suffering all this time trying to find myself in happiness after my parents died. And then all of you came to my life and it was the best time of my life. But it all changed when you fall for me. I tried to warn you so many times but why you didn't listen to me? Look at what happened. I think it's also my fault that I feel this family is so precious that I never realised that I love them. Now he's going further away from me and I don't want that..," 

 He holds your cold hands "I want to know what it feels to fall in love. But I'm scared I'll lose everyone,"

"You loved me?" You know he's not talking about you but you're confused about who is the one that has his heart "I don't know... But you loved me that's why you left isn't it?" Yoongi looks at you with a bitter-sweet smile. A single tear dropped from your eyes. The feeling is too overwhelmed "Why are you crying?" He wiped the tear with his thumb "I-I don't know..." He eyes lost in your eyes "I missed you," He puts one hand behind your neck holding you tight. "Me too..," The word escaped from your mouth as if you're the one who he is talking about 

 He leaned forward and unknowingly your body follows your heart and soon your lip touches his soft one. The atmosphere between you two stopped as the world belongs to you guys. Wet and cold water touches your cheeks and you could tell that it's his tears. Your heart seems to be fond of the time that your emotions flow out that make you cry too. Your lip moves along with his perfectly. He pulled you closer until there's no space between you two 

He apart the kiss and looks through your eyes. "You're so beautiful..," His voice softly rings in your ears that it made you blush. "Let's go inside... It's cold out here," He nodded and you help him walk as he's fully drunk. 

Along the hallway before his room, he holds the handrail and stopped you "I'm sleepy... I'm just going to sleep here," He then says down and falls asleep there. You panicked and try to wake him up quietly "Damn it" You hold your breath and lift him like you always do to Joon. When you remember about him it brings a smile on your face. You put Yoongi on the bed and turn the nightlamp on. You cover him with the blanket and stare at his puffy face "You sure have a hard life too huh? Me too..," You smile and was going to walk away but then you saw something. You bent to the nightstand and saw the frame you broke the other day.  

"He.. fixed it," You hold it up and then it all makes sense. "So this is you. I could see that smile is so full of love," You said to the woman in the picture. 'her style quite same as me maybe that's why he confused...' You put it down and walk away but he held your hand and pulls you next to him. You're so shocked and couldn't do anything. You tried to move away from him but "Stay..," He holds your hands tightly and you ended up lying next to him. 

Your face is so close to his that you could feel his breath"Don't leave me," He pulls you for a hug "I won't" And he slowly closes his eyes. You stare at his lip 'How can you be that good?' You give him a peck and stay on his embrace. 'He smells like grapefruits' You chuckle and pet his head 'His hair is so soft even though it looks rough... Just like your heart' You wonder and slowly fell into sleep and suddenly the word

'I think I like you' 

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I'm dying here... I'm sorry for those who know me  ;')

Roses are red, my cheeks are blue- wait it's pink. 

Thanks for still reading this weird ff 

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