Lost

The past haunts me(9)

Kiora pov

Damn he looks good rn. We just got back from our run and he looks good sweaty and just fuck.

He's smiling rn with his white ass teeth them pink lips lord have mercy. Don't even get me started on his skin all smooth and Carmel.

This nigga make me wanna fuck.Im tryna save it for the right time and not do something I'm not ready for yet but jeez.

"Babygirl you wasn't listening to me",he pouts at me lifting me up on his body cause I somehow got in his arms.

I shake my head no and he chuckles. "Baby i said you going to take a shower put on ya clothes so we can leave",i lift a brow.

Where the hell we going.I pout a bit cause ion wanna leave. "I'm taking you shopping I still owe you half a date sweetie".

Honestly I forgot all about that. Now that I've gotten more comfortable with Kane my speech has been more frequent.

I mean I only speak to him my therapist is still trying to get me to talk with others and I miss talking to my little sister.

To be honest I dead ass don't want to go anywhere. Like shopping is fun and all but ion feel like walking around the mall and i damn sure don't want to spend money especially Kane's.

His Car

"Baby you look good", I sign thank you once and started to fiddle with my thumbs. I'm not sure why but I get bored and just start touching shit or moving.

"Ki we won't be out long ok just a few hours and I'm taking you to my spot tonight ok",I nod at him.

We get to the mall and he opens my door for me. I get out grabbing my phone and wallet. We went to the side entrance and I went right into rue 21.

I made him sit outside the waiting rooms as I tired stuff on and showed him. We were in that store for about two hours finding stuff.

"For someone who was grumpy you sure are bubbly now babe", I giggle yeah I never want to go shopping I til I get in the mall.

We go get pretzels and he takes a big ass bite of my pizza pretzel. I almost slapped the taste out his mouth.

I stole two of his little pigs in blankets.I went over to pink and bought some stuff and some perfume.

Then we went so I could buy him this watch I saw that I knew he'd like. "Thank you baby I really like the watch also you gotta tell me what you want for Christmas and stuff".

I actually don't like Christmas very much but this year we decided I'd spend it with his family rather than mine i mean I wasn't going no where near my dads house.

I normally just sneak a extra present into my sisters room under her bed after breaking into my old room.

That little girl is the only family I have considering what my mom did and is trying to fix.

"Bae you be zoning out a lot",i look at my watch. I sign it's getting late and we should go home.

I'm sleepy and all these fucking bags I got. He chuckles prolly cause that's what he said to me while I wasn't paying attention.

He helps me with the bags more like just takes damn near all of them and we walk out to the car.

I help put them in the back seat. Then I take the keys. I want to drive cause I like driving his truck I be feeling tall.

"How about we go home i make you dinner then we take quick trip to my secret spot and I drive us back and we sleep so I can drive us to school tomorrow or would you rather I take you tomorrow after school", I say the second option.

Also I tell him I want Italian for dinner. He makes the best Alfredo with chicken broccoli and shrimp.

Getting back in the house I put all the stuff away and the amount of time that takes dinner is almost done. I walk over to the kitchen and hop onto the counter.

I chuckle at Kane dancing all weird. "Your cute" , he smiles at me handing my a plate and a bowl.

The plate has a piece of cake and the bowl had Alfredo I'm not really in a cake mood so I just tell him he can have it and say thank you.

I was the dishes and he dries them before we eat. He comes in between my legs and starts feeding me.

And then just sat in front of me to eat. Like directly in front of me. Like his face was very close to my lap.

I could just put my legs on his shoulders and his head a little closer.......

Anyways I clear my throat feeling his hand on my upper outer thigh. He knows damn well what he doing.

Now we may not be fucking but I'll be damned if he don't be making me horny shit he need to stop.

I zoned out so long ian realize he finished his food. I wrapped my plate up that was a lot of food for me to eat in just one sitting.

I jump onto him after everything was put away and cleaned. He grabs my but to lift me up and I kiss him.

He kissed back of course. I wrap my arms around his neck and he takes me to my room not breaking the kiss and lays me on the bed.

"Baby your lips so soft.",i bite my lip and as he lays in bed I crawl onto him pecking his lips.

After about ten times he holds my neck to deepen our kisses and his other hand holds my waste tighter.

I sigh in satisfaction. He starts kissing down my jaw and leaving little kisses on my neck then starts to suck on it prolly giving me hickies.

I moan feeling him bite me a little. He pulls me closer and I put my hand on his chest."I'm sorry",I whisper into his ear.

He kissed my cheek. "You have nothing to be sorry for I already know baby",he whispers back.

I'm not ready to have sex with him. I was about to panic just now in the back of my head I had flashbacks.

Yea Kane felt good but I'm not fully ready yet he doesn't even know what happened to me and I need to tell him before we do that.

I'll have to find a good time to so he doesn't freak out. I don't want him to judge me especially since it wasn't my fault.

It took me a very long time to understand that but it truly wasn't my fault.