Good morning! Haha. Know that I'm always good at pretending but my eyes? My eyes can't lie anymore haha
Maaga nga ako dumating sa work, then ayun I had a little chit chat with my work mates. Wng guest what? They noticed my beautiful namumugtong eyes. They keep on asking me what happened? Did I cry because of my bf? And I just said na it's because of a movie I've watched last night. Yep hahahha mediyo naniwala naman sila eh. At eto hahaha tamang tama din kasi na I shared a trailer of one movie na sobra daw nakakaiyak. At I guest, yun yung iniisip nila hwehwe 🤣 I thought keeping myself busy will take this pain away. But it's a big NOPE. Haha almost whole day I've been thinking for something I can do with him. I don't know. I just felt like he'll cheat again, after changing his profile pic again. I dont like this kind of relationship. Pag may hindi ako nagagawa or may mali akong nagagawa eh binabawian ako. You know what I mean??? Yung tipong "oo ginawa ko kaso araw araw ko yun nararamdaman, ginawa ko para naman alam mo yung pakiramdam".
Me be like:what? Hahaha
Really? Wow. Just wow!
What if I do what you did. Cheating? Haha. Well, I will not do tgat even I have a chance. Bec I'm not that kind of person. So cheap.
Anyway. Busy ako kanina haha.. Processing the products, filing our docus, making friends since I don't know if my workmates likes me na haha.. Pero hindi nawawala yung tipong lutang moments ko. Feeling na I'll do everything just to distract this feelings. Gawd! I feel like I'm about to cry there sa office kanina. Kakahiya haha lalaki lang iiyakan ko?
So ayun they keep on teasing me, bakit ako umiyak. So i keep on denying. Haha. I pretend that it's just bec of a movie hahaha. Shit.
After a while gusto ko tumayo so I go to tha comfort room. I was so bored walking alone so I just count my footstep. From our comfort room to our office. Sooooo. HAHA it turns out that 75 footsteps para makarating ka sa office from cr. I just want to share haha....
As I was walking kasi. I just breath in and out deeply. I just, i just don't know what to say. Who to talk.what to do.
All I do was smile and smile but I'm so dead inside! So I pray to God. Because all I know is, I'm with him. He's beside me ALWAYS! I know that. Im pleading that this feelings, end soon...
Hopefully. After this heartache will lead me into the real happiness I always wish. I just wish. ❤️🙏🏻 I am so tired. I am so broke.
People said that, "you should do what makes you happy. As long as you're not hurting others"
So easy to say that, hahaha I mean. How? When doing things that's make you happy will always hurt those people around you?... I wish I could do everything bravely ❤️
I'm always praying to God that, I hope. Yung mga taong nakakaranas ng nararamdaman ko ngayon, sana makayanan din nila. Yes I made a lot of wrong choice. But that doesn't mean, I deserved these mix pain hahha. I deserve to be happy. Yeah! Im right. I deserve to be happy. Happy by myself.
🌻 𝓜𝓪𝓮𝓒𝓮
