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" Dejani , you not listening to me." I said lowly.
" The fuck you mean Rayven ?" He sighed. " I don't think you understand-"
" But I'm okay !" I said wiping my face.
" I know that but how you expect me to walk around like shit okay when it's not ?" He raised his voice. " I put you in a situation you should never be in , I can jeapordize my loved ones because I'm making careless mistakes."
He was visibly stressed after what happened at the shop especially since he couldn't look me in my eye.
I just kind of miss my life without the drama.
Dejani and I have always been close so I understand how he feels but I don't want him to sit around blaming himself for what happened to me.
I just looked at my hands and played with my nails now knowing what else to say because it was already a lose-lose situation. The damage has already been done.
" I love you , okay ?" He said wrapping his arms around me.
" I love you more." I said smiling because it's been such a long time since I genuinely got a hug from him. " I'll see you later though , I need to go get some sleep."
" Alright , bye." He said and I just waved my hand walking out of his house and into my car.
Young thugs new album played as I made my way to American deli.
Thoughts swarmed my head as I sat back and really thought about life.
I've never really been close with a lot of people so being by myself most days was normal to me. I like-actually love being alone but nowadays it's been feeling like I need more trustworthy people around me.
" Hello ?" I said putting my phone to my ear.
" Hey sweets , how you feeling ?" Ameenah said softly.
She knew to never pity me after I've made it clear many years ago but she felt so bad for what happened.
Thinks it was " wrong place , wrong time."
Maybe.
" Im doing good just about to go home , I'm a little tired."
