I don't know what it is,
I'm not sure if I'm happy or sad,
But whatever it is it doesn't feels good,
I'm at my lowest yet I'm the most positive version of myself,
I'm not even nearer to being happy,
But not even drowned in meloncholy,
It doesn't feels good at the same time,
I'm impulsive,young, rude and contrive,
I'm insecure and uncomfortable.
I really have no idea when will this disappear,
It all just frustrates me,
No one really understands what it is beside saying "try to find happiness in all the little things",
It isn't easy,
Words don't let you win the battle,
But I guess I already lost the battle,
Even before it started hitting me.
