Roommates // killugon

Helpful x friend

I'm sorry I'm rlly bad at naming these chapters lol 💀

Killuas POV
A whole burst of emotions hit me as we kissed.
Why... why is gon kissing me?!
I pulled away.
"Gon..." I said and blushed.
"Killua" he whispered back, giving me shivers.
Did I like the kiss??
I looked down and turned away.
"I'm gonna go to bed." I mumbled and he grabbed my arm, making me flinch.
"Killua! Please, let me talk" he pleaded so I turned towards him.
"Killua, I like you. I've liked you for who knows how long. And when you started dating Chrollo, I started dating trystan so that it would be a distraction from my feelings for you... but I love you killua. I know it isn't fair for me to be doing this right after you went through a break up, but I couldn't hold my feelings in anymore" his eyes were watering.
He likes me??
I opend my mouth to speak but nothing came out.
"Gon... I-I don't know" I rushed out and went to my room.
"Killua!! Please, don't run from this!!" He begged as I walked away.
"I'm not! Just let me think!" I said, crying.
When did my tears come?? Why am I crying!?
I went into my room, shut my door and leaned against it. I heard gon sit on our couch.
He was crying silently, calling himself stupid every once and a while.
Do I like him?? I mean i like him as a friend... but as a boyfriend...
The word boyfriend hit different.
"Boyfriend... gon" I mumbled to myself.
I can't just date him because I feel bad! I want to actually love him!!
I ran my hands through my hair.
I mean... I was jealous of him when he was with trystan. And I felt empty when I kissed Chrollo around him. So why do I not know if I like him?!
Kurapika. I needed Kurapika.
I ran out of my room and zoomed through the door as gon yelled my name.
I walked down the hall for a littler but then stopped in front of his dorm.
I knocked.
"What the hell do you thing your doing, at 2 in the morning" Leorio mumbled in anger.
"Sorry, it's me" I told him, and once he saw my tears I was let in.
"Was it Chrollo again??" He asked and I flinched at the name.
"No. Where's Kurapika"
"Oh right, your here for Kurapika, not me" he rolled his eyes and I glared at him.
"He's over there" he pointed to the left door.
"Thanks"
I walked up to his door and knocked.
What the fuck am I doing?? It's 2 in the morning!"
I heard him moan something and get up.
"Hello?" He asked opening the door.
"Kurapika... I umm, can I ask you something" I mumbled in embarrassment.
"Yea, sure come in" he told me tiredly.
"So... gon kissed me" I burst out and Kurapikas eyes widened
"Oh no..." he mumbled
"And I don't know how I feel about him but he's waiting for an answer" I blushed thinking about how stupid I sounded.
"And this happened at 2 in the morning!!" Leorio shouted through the door.
"Leorio! Privacy!!" Kurapika shouted back, rubbing his head in frustration.
"Well, I know this isn't much help, but I really think you should talk to him. Tell him that you don't know yet, I've known gon for a while, I know he can set his feelings aside if he needs to." He told me.
"Ok, I can try that" my eyes were watering
Why are they watering?!
"Killua it's ok!!" He hugged me, and patted my back.
"Kurapika your gonna be a great dad" I laughed and pulled away.
"Thanks" he smiled "but this isn't about me! Go tell gon what you think!" He said encouragingly and I rushed out, bumping into Leorio.
I glared at hem but kept walking.
"Leorio, come here!" Kurapika shouted madly.
"Hmm" he grumbled and I heard Kurapika shouting to him about privacy.
"Gon, I need to talk to you!" I told him and burst into his room.
He was asleep.
"Ugh... gon wake up" I said shaking him.
"Mmh... killuaaa" he moand.
"Stopp!" He said and batted me away.
He's so cute.
Wait, what  am I saying!!
"I need to talk to you" I said.
"Right now?? If you didn't notice, it's really late" he mumbled sitting up.
"I know, I'm sorry but it's important" I sat on the end of his bed.
"I talked to Kurapika."
"Ok...?"
"I don't know gon. I don't know what I feel, I'm not sure if I'm even ready to date again or what I even feel about you" I mumbled.
"Killua... that's fine. I'm sorry for rushing in earlier. I just didn't want to hold in my feelings any longer" he looked anywhere but my eyes.
"Thank you for understanding gon... I wish I could have an answer sooner but I don't."
I suddenly heard soft crying.
"Gon??" I looked at him and saw him wiping his eyes.
"Sorry, I'm ok I promise. I'm gonna go to bed" he mumbled and got under his covers.
"Goodnight" I said and left the room.
I'm sorry gon

Guys I had no idea how obsessed I was with Chrollo till today. He's just so fucking amazing 😭😭😭 idk how he's so perfect.

(Pretend I didn't just write him horrribly and make him date Killua)