Phoenix's pov:
I woke up in an awkward position, with someones arms around my waist, i looked down to see long black hair spread around the pillow next to me, Tj. i unwrapped his arms from me and went to get some breakfast "so how'd it go?" Devin asked me and i shrugged "he wants me to come back, to go on tour with them so i can 'reconnect with the guys' whatever that means." Devin laughed at my air quotations and i glared at him whilst walking over to the dark oak cupboards, i pulled out bread and put some into the toaster, i then pulled out two plates and some butter and waited for the toast to pop up. "so are you going to go? i mean there bus leaves at two am tomorrow.." i shrugged "i might.. but i don't know Devin! what would you do??" I asked as i pulled the hot toast out and buttered it "i'd go! I'd try and fix it!" I chewed my lip and picked up the plates "if i go would you look after Alan?" I asked and Devin nodded "of course i would!! Speaking of Alan i have to pick up some more cat food." i nodded and took the plates back to my room "Teej?" I said softly trying to wake him up, he rolled over taking most of my duvet with him "Thomas wake the fuck up!" I half yelled and he jumped up opening his eyes quickly "What the fuck?!?!" He shrieked and i passed him a purple plate with the toast on "here, it's half past eleven and you don't have sound check till two, Craig called me and told me to tell you that." i rubbed my eyes sleepily and began eating the toady i'd just made, Tj did the same before stopping "so do you think you'll come?" He asked and i shrugged "how long will i be away for?" Tj shrugged "Three months and we'll be back in LA it's your choice what you do from there." i chewed my lip thinking it over, do i leave my new life here and try and rebuild one with my family? Or do i stay with my new family and let them move on without me? "Phoenix every word i said to you yesterday was true! I need you with me! It was always us against the world, if you don't want to come its fine i understand but could you please tell me your exact reason for leaving?" I took a deep breath and put my plate on the floor next to the bed "okay, so you remember that day when we were on tour that i disappeared for a day right?" I paused and he nodded "well, i was at the doctors.. i found out i was pregnant.." Tj's eyes widened and i continued with the story "well a few weeks later, i miscarried.. i never had the heart to tell you because it was killing me.. so i left, i ended everything and i left.." Tj's eyes glazed over and i allowed all the pain, the tears, the anger, to flow out as he held me "i'm so sorry you had to go through that alone nix.. i never even knew!" Tj looked so upset it physically pained me to see him like that.. instead of continuing my crying and not hugging him back i wrapped my arms around him and comforted him to.. because of course he'd need it! The little emotional wreck he is.. "Tj i've decided that I'm coming with you." I said, my voice sounded reassuring and i knew now there was no going back on it now.
Tj's pov:
I walked off of the stage, sweaty and exhausted from actually being happy for once, the guys were aware that phoenix would be getting here in about ten minuets, i didn't know what would happen, all i know is that Max will be the happiest out of them all.
We got to our dressing room and i saw Max asleep on the couch, Max doesn't tour with us all the time and it's been a pretty long time since he has been so he's pretty fucking exhausted, i threw my shirt at him trying to wake him up. "EW FUCKING EW!!" Max yelled and flapped the sweaty shirt onto the floor i laughed and pulled on a clean shirt before going to help the guys load our gear into the trailer, we finished helping the crew pack up and i waited outside of the bus for Phoenix to get here.
After a few minuets of waiting i saw Devin's car stop outside, she got out of the passenger and Devin got out of the drivers side, i smiled knowing she couldn't back out of this now. "i'll see you in a few months Dev, don't forget to feed Alan and he has a check up in two weeks, i'll text you the date and the time." i heard her tell him as she hugged him goodbye, Devin said a few things and then suddenly he was driving away and she was walking towards me dragging a familiar black suitcase now covered in stickers from different countries and bands. She hugged me with her free arm and i helped her carry the heavy case up the steep bus steps, atleast there were only two or i'm sure i would've died! we both collapsed on the floor laughing at how weak we both are "it's not even that heavy Teej!" she chocked out, he sound of her laughter punctuating the sentence and causing Max to magically appear in front of us "PHOENIX!!!" he yelled and hugged her insanely tightly, Robert appeared next to him and immediatley wanted in on the hug "hey share the Phoenix! i've missed my biggest daughter to!!" it was funny how neither of them seemed to change, neither of them hated Phoenix for her choices, they just missed her like hell. on the other hand, Craig and Thrash would be a hell of a lot harder to bring around to the idea of having her back.. You can tell from the scowls on their faces that this was going to be a long couple of months..
Phoenix's pov:
I hugged my dads back and waited for them to let go, after a few moments of being squeezed to death i managed to get them to let go eventually and saw Craig and Kevin glaring at me. I ignored it and a small girl around age ten walked out from the bunks "daddy who's that?" She asked and dad turned to her "this is your older sister Phoenix." she nodded and looked at Robert "bob when are you going to read me a story?" Robert rolled his eyes at her impatient ness "why haven't you asked Rueben?" He said and the kid shrugged "he's asleep." Tj nudged me with his elbow, i turned to face him "that's Sarah." he whispered and i nodded feeling slightly more enlightened "wait did you just say Rueben was here?!?" I asked and Robert nodded. i smiled and tj dragged me to the bunk room "put your suitcase on top of mine, we errm, have a small bunk shortage with Rubes being here and all, so i hope you don't mind sharing with me?" I shrugged "its cool." I told him, a small smiled on my face at the thought of rebuilding my relastionships with everyone, not just Tj. "Tj did i just hear phoenix?" i heard Rueben ask sleepily and Tj nodded pulling me out from behind the bunk curtain and into Rueben's eye line. "PHOENIX!!" he yelled and jumped up to hug me "you fucker don't do anything like that again!!" he continued, i smiled and nodded hugging him again, "fucking hell your tall!" i said realizing i was being dwarfed by my now huge brother "nah you shrunk." he said making me laugh "of course i have." i replied sarcastically "anyways, go back to sleep you look fucking shattered!" i told him and he yawned and nodded before going back into his bunk. i turned to see that Tj had disappeared, i turned around to see sarah now in pyjama's holding a small teddy that looked similar to my austin bear "bobby said your my big sister, so as your fist act of big sisterness can you read me a story?" she asked me, punctuating the sentence with a yawn "of course i can sweetie." i replied and she smiled holding the teddy bear up to her chest and flopping into her bunk, i recognised the bunk but not as my own, this was TJ's old bunk, i quickly poked my head out of the curtain and saw that the bunk Tj now sleeps in was indeed my old bunk. "nixy!" Sarah said snapping me out of my daze, i smiled at the familiar nickname "how do you know people call me that?" i asked and she shrugged "uncle Tj used to cry a lot about you and when daddy and bob asked he'd always say 'cause he wanted his nixy back." i smiled at how cute and carefree she is, a book was suddenly dropped into my lap "can you read this?" i nodded and then thought of something "your old enough to read by your self aren't you?" i asked and she nodded "i just like stories, i'm nine that's not to big!" i laughed and began reading through the second chapter of the hobbit.
When sarah fell asleep i climbed out of her bunk carefully and made sure i didn't wake her up before leaving. my dads were on one ouch, i couldn't see Tj and Craig's glare made me aware of his presence. "craig can i talk to you outside please?" i asked politley and saw him think about it for a few seconds before standing up and following me outside of the bus, i pulled my cigarettes out of my back pocket and lit one, i exhaled some smoke and looked at craig "look craig i get why your so pissed, i mean me leaving caused a lot of problems with the band for you an-" Craig cut me off "you think i'm upset with you because you disappearing because it fucked things up with my band members?!" i nodded "YOU LEAVING UPSET ME TWO! YOUR LIKE A SECOND DAUGHTER TO ME AND YOU JUST FUCKED OFF LIKE THAT?! that fucked ME up to! i know it's selfish but im mad because it upset me to okay?!" i nodded and Craig's expression softened "i've just missed having you around to keep us all sane." he told me and i smiled "I've missed having you guys around to keep me insane." he giggled and hugged me, i hugged back after dropping my finished cigarette onto the ground. "it's nice to have you back phoenix." i walked up the steps of the bus and checked the time "night guys." i said and they all said good night back, i went to my suitcase and grabbed my oversized 'dying is your latest fashion' shirt and climbed into the bunk next to a tired looking Tj "phoenix?" he asked and i nodded as i pulled the duvet over the two of us "do you think we'd ever get back together?" he asked and i shrugged "who knows Teej." he nodded looking slightly sad and i leant my head against his chest "it's inevitable that it will happen Tj i just don't know when." i felt him nod and then yawn "i love you nixy, night." he whispered before turning off the light "love you to Tj."
listening to D.R.U.G.S. the hangman.
so guys what do you think of the story so far? if you guys haven't read the first book you should probably read it but it won't be to confusing if you havent! this update was 2010 words long and i'm really proud of it lol!
