how ignorant i'm.

How Ignorant I am.

Mother,
I have been too ignorant about you,
Thought that you are an enemy of mine,
When I was teen,
Thought you are careless about me,
When you actually sacrificed every cell of yours,
To raise me into beautiful person.
Thought that you torture me,
Yet you were the best of advisor.
You never gave up on me,
In fact you loved me to the core of your heart.
And in return I gave you nothing but more hatred.
You are most most precious pearl in the ocean,
The most needed thing in the world to many,
Yet I was very careless about you.
When I see other mothers showing love to their children,
I compared you to them thinking you never loved me that way,
I thought mothers are the one to cook food for children in the morning,
Wake them up from sleep to clean and feed them,
How ignorant I was when you put this responsibility on me for good,
I thought you just want to rest n enjoy,
Rather I did few chores and then rest you would take care of.
When I realised that not even one responsibility I would take good care of,
How did you manage to take care of everything since when you were just teen?
How ignorant I'm about you!
Many years have passed you took care of your every child in best possible way,
You raised them up while sacrificing every cell of your body,
Yet no children of yours is ready to sacrifice a minute for you,
One day father was angry on you and was cursing you and was fighting with you,
That day I realised what was your mistake to receive such a behavior in return?
Your mistake was That you sacrificed your sleep, your health, your entertainment, your parents, your time, your beauty, your education, your love towards sports just to bring his children in best of manners.
This was your mistake that you did? That you got in return?
You looked too weak and fragile and very hurt,
That moment teared me apart, to see you like that.
I wanted to hug you and say mom I am here for you and I will give you what you deserve,
But I was too helpless to say and I was too hurt to speak.
I wish I could tell him all the feeling you were going through,
yet I'm too fearful to speak to him,
And after few days everythings started to get normal,
One day you asked your son for money to buy some stuff,
And they denied that they didn't have money.
Yet you smiled at them and said may god bless you.
And what was your mistake to get this treatment?
Was this your mistake That you sacrificed every penny of yours to feed us healthy food, that you sacrificed your savings to cloth us, to bring us toys, to take us to park, n to take care of our needs.
That when you used to save that money for your medicines and for your emergency but you gave that all to give us comfort n luxurious life.
How ignorant your childrens are? And how long there will be?
When we will realise that we will loose the most precious pearl?

~usidq.

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I wish i realised it soon but its never late,
I love you mother, and can never ever be able to pay back to you for what you gave me.

May Allah bless you, have mercy on you, forgive you, accepts your good deed and grant you highest level in jannah al firdous آمين.