My life is like a feather that flies in the air, from the wings of a bird. It is no longer wanted, or needed. Nobody cares about it. it has no beauty. No future. No dreams, and most of all no one loves it. From the day I was born I had nobody, and s...
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Dear Diary,
It's finally nice to have someone to talk to. I haven't
My life is like a feather that flies in the air, from the wings of a bird. It is no longer wanted, or needed. Nobody cares about it. it has no beauty. No future. No dreams, and most of all no one loves it. From the day I was born I had nobody, and still to this day I have no one.
My name is Nora. Nora Kingwelston. Yes, I am that child. That, unfortunate, pitiful child who was never meant to be born in the first place. The infamous child of the cold-hearted, merciless emperor who had not one drop of kindness or love in his rock stone soul. I was born as the "first princess" of the empire. The emperor's biggest mistake of having an affair with a dancer who had entered the lands from a different country far from Zenlair (The empire which I live in).
She was also known as my mother. I never really met my mother. She died without any notice, the day I was born. The day I still remember. Yes, I still remember the event that took place when I was born. The day, I saw my "father". How disgraceful to even call him by that name. A father who was meant to be kind, caring and the best part of my life, turned out to be the nightmare he is to me today. I can't sleep peacefully, as I always wake up sweating to the piercing gaze he gave me. All he did was name me, the stupid name Nora. I would rather die than possess a name by that beast. He was the reason I don't have my mother. I saw that in his sharp gaze when he looked at me with all the hatred he possessed. He had no love for my mother. I knew that from the bottom of my heart. He had no love individually, so what was the point of calling him a "dad". I would rather call that man a beast. Yes, that was fitting.
The Emperor. My father. He didn't have the happiest or the joyous of childhoods, you see. All I know was that he was crowned the emperor of the kingdom as soon as he turned sixteen, due to his father dying at war. His father too was a heartless monster, no wonder where his cold aura came from. He killed all his cousins and relatives, to make sure he had ultimate power over the empire. By the age of fourteen, he had already been to fifteen wars, upfront. You might think that from hearing such depressing news, I would have some sympathy for that man. Well I guess, you thought wrong.
I also have two brothers you see. Both of whom, I have never met in my existence. From what I heard, one is the first prince and his name is "Xander". The "Crown Prince" if you were to see him. He was the son of the emperor's first wife. He is known as the cunning, devil prince. I don't even need to mention how the father and son are similar in personality. The second one is known as the psychotic prince or his name, "Edward". He was the son of the emperor's second wife. The stories I heard of him, are just as bizarre as the first.
Somehow all two of the emperor's wives have died, along with my mother. I wonder who caused such a terrible sin? Both princes are known for their humourless comparison to the emperor himself. All equally crazy and diabolic. I can't believe I was born into such a family, but thank goodness I have never truly met any of them.
I am not your average child you see. My life went crumbling down since I was born. After seeing that monster's face for the first and last time, I was sent to a completely different palace called the "Bronze Palace". You could hear by the name it wasn't the most favourable palace of the emperor. He had six palaces accordingly to his importance to them. I presume. Bronze was at the bottom, just like me. I have a very efficient memory you see. I am still able to remember things as clear as water. That is how I remembered that miserable occurring. In this kingdom, there is such a thing as magic, but only the emperor possesses the power of the ultimate ability to control anything. But never have I read in any book or heard anyone say about the powers I possess. I am a heavy reader. See since I was the only one in this place, I entertained myself by being in the library or the "Grand Bronze".
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Up until this day I have read nearly all the books there. To say I am only ten now. Ha! Nothing keeps me company like books. Adventuring deep into the loving, mysterious, frightful, sweet and scornful lives of different characters. Here I am allowed to be set free, and believe I am loved. Believe I have dreams and a future. Believe I am not alone. It is also very entertaining to learn about different subjects. The beauty of education as some books describe. But as soon as I lift my head from their fantasies and make beliefs, I re-enter the dark place of helplessness.
The inability to breath properly. The nightmares and inability to keep my eyes closed through the night. The constant thoughts that engulfed me with their terrors. The black abyss that always surrounds me. I have no-one in this empty palace. Big and fancy but with no love to it, it is just a haunted rejection.No maids, as all of them have become negligent of me and are too scared to enter this palace. No friends, as I am forgotten of. And no family, not even a pet. I get myself dressed, teach myself with the beautiful library I have, learn self-defence with the trees in the forest. I handle all the pressure inside of me. I have been feeling it for ten years now, nearly eleven. There isn't any use of trying to demolish it, because...I can't.
It is hard to describe what I feel. If I was to give you a simile, it is like you are stuck in an ocean, with no light. You can't hold your breath under there, but you are stuck. You try reaching up to the surface to find a way to escape, but you can't. There isn't an end. Nowhere, in no place. You panic, trying to break free from the uncomfortable feeling of hopelessness and loneliness. You search and search, trying to find a way to escape this gloomy ocean. Eventually, you stop trying. You know you can't get out. You know there is no hope. So you give up, and you sit there. Lost and never able to reach up.
I am hopeless. I was born alone in this world and will die alone too. I don't leave the palace. Even though I could. There is no use. Nobody knows, or will ever care for me. I am just Nora, the girl who was neglected and will always be unwanted. Life was never fair. Happiness is only in books. I only have myself in this world...
Until we meet again Diary,
From Nora.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: "I hope you like the story of Nora. Her journey has just begun. To help continue her journey, please help me by voting and commenting on this book. My question of the chapter is, "What will happen next?". I still can't understand how Nora will look like so can you send me suggestions? Thank you! I hope you enjoy "NORA". FWI, I know this is like a diary, the whole point is our reading a diary so live with it 😁.
