Moth Naps

☄️ due tomorrow

Maybe if I'd just shut up that day and never confessed what i'd done,

maybe you'd still be here today.

I should just kill myself,

it's all my fault that you're gone, but I'm being over-dramatic.

I have a great life.

But everything is too scary and I can't go on.

I'll just make a mistake, I'll just be akward, I'll just mess up. I'll kill someone else, il fail.again, I'll do what I did you.

and that's too scary a thought.

everything is too scary to manage.

mornings feel like I should just kill myself then get up

because if I have to wake up and feel that way every morning, with whatever I think wrong, with my mind tangled and fucking knotted, with my body glued to the bed, with him yelling at me to contribute to society, with my motivation being non-existent,

it really isn't worth it.

There is no good part, the bad cancels it all out. The pain and scariness and the guilt; its not worth it.

It's not worth it.

But how could I kill myself?

I can't do anything without being wrong.

Everything's too scary and too much and my mind will Implode with thoughts that I shouldn't be thinking.

god someone save me, if that's not too selfish.

please save me.

help me.

I don't want to do this anymore.

I want to be saved.

it's all too scary and I can't handle it anymore.

I can't.