𝘉𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘉𝘺 𝘍𝘢𝘵𝘦 ||𝗞𝗨𝗡 𝗫 𝗟𝗜𝗦𝗔

Chapter 61

Lisa's POV

"What?" He ask again, I smiled nervously and scratch my hair.

"I love you, Kun." I said again, I saw how his jaw dropped.

"Lisa, no. I'm not prepared for this, I'm sorry." he said and left me in the kitchen. I look away and bit my lip.

"Lisa, don't cry. " i said myself and get some water again but before I could touch the glass of water my tears fell in my eyes.

"I know its just a dare but I mean it." I whispered myself and sob.

How stupid of you Lisa! Believing he would love you back! I'm such a fool!

I tried to stand up from sitting in the floor but my legs won't cooperate. I smiled bitterly remembering how his eyes look at me. I know, Kun. You don't love me anymore. I understand.

 We would never be the same again, it hurst. It hurts so much. I don't want to wipe my tears, I want him to wipe it like he used to before. I dont want to stop loving him ,I want him to start loving me again. I want to return us but theres no us in the first place, it was just all pure lies and bullshit.

I know that he will never be mine anymore and it hurts like hell when I realized that I lost a gem like you, Kun. I would heal but it would take a lifetime to accept that you are not mine anymore and that I would never have to spend my life and grow old with you. 

He doesn't need me and it fucking kills me.

"Kun. Can't we just go back to the way we used to be? Please, help me. It hurts." I whisper and another tear fell. 

All I ever want is for you to want me again, to love me again, hold me, kiss me and mark me as yours.  I just want to be with you, grow and die with you, its is that hard ?

But I remember, not all the people that we love will love us back. 

Some people are hurt by words, some are by actions and some are by silence but do you know what hurts the most? The person you love turns his back on you and left you wounded. 

I stand up again and atlast my legs cooperated. I slowly walks towards our room and open it. I saw Kun sleeping peacefully and it made my heart ache more, his sleeping peacefully while me? crying all the pain he caused. 

I lose, I smiled bitterly. He won the bet, he must be happy seeing me miserable. He should have not show me those gestures and actions if he doesnt want me, for goddamn sake! Those actions are like telling me we have a damn thing!

I sigh and wipe the tear that fell again my eyes, I slowly walk towards the bed and lay. I tried not to make a noise and when I successfully lay down the bed, tears fell in my eyes like waterfalls. I cried that night and fell asleep. 

I hope I will be fine tommorow, and tommorow I would tell him that I would stop the game he starts and I would never show my face to him again. 

Author's Note

I cried writing this chapter, I just felt the pain Lisa has been feeling today. 

You deserve to be happy, Lili!