Petals - TodoDeku Hanahaki AU -

Chapter 5

 The walk to Momo's seemed to take hours or maybe it's because I was walking slower than I usually might've. Am I really going to do this? I felt sick to my stomach. Momo was a sweet girl and I was good friends with her, but this couldn't last.

What do I even say? Hey I never really liked you so bye!!! Ugh that was terrible.

I looked up to the sky and sighed. I wanted to think of something else, but all my mind was filled with was Izuku. His messy green hair, his emerald eyes, his freckles, and the pain I caused him. I can't think of that right now, but I can't seem to get that off my mind.

I already ruined Izuku's should I even ruin Momo's. Also even if I tell Izuku will he even feel the same..? I ruined his life and I don't even know if I love him. What if he still ends up gone? I just owe it to Momo. I need to focus on that.

I came to her front door. Should I knock? That's what you do when you come to someone's house of course you knock! Even my brain wasn't working. I finally knocked and it was Momo.

"Shouto! What are you doing here? It's super late..." She asked, confused.

"Umm I need to talk to you." I gulped.

"Ok, is it okay if we talk on the porch I don't want to wake up my parents." She did a small laugh, "There was something I wanted to talk about to you also anyways."

We sat down together and sat awkwardly for a minute until I tried to break the silencer.

"Sooo umm how was your day?" I asked awkwardly.

"What did you want to tell me?" She asked me after she said that. She had pain in her eyes.

"Well I," what do you say in this situation? Why is this so hard!?!?!?

"Here,can I go first?" Momo asked in a shy tone. I nodded. "Shouto I liked you and I will always like you and you have a special place in my heart it's just," She sighed. "Ugh why is this so hard!?!?!" She buried her face in her hands. 'Oh my god is she breaking up with me?'

"Momo, I sort of think that I know what you're trying to tell me." I need a small laugh and she looked at me. She embraced me in a hug.

"Thank you Shouto for everything, I'm glad that we met and I hope we can stay friends." She gave a smile.

"Of course, so uhh why are you breaking up with me?" I asked with sort of a laugh.

"Well umm I think I'm maybe gay.." She muttered under her breath. I couldn't help, but laugh to myself. "What's so funny?" She asked, confused.

"Uhh well I sort of feel the same exact way." We both laughed together as we sat on the porch. Just two really dumb queer kids.

"So, do you like anyone?" She smiled slyly.

"Maybe, but do you like anyone?" I asked her back, avoiding the question.

"Yes, but if I tell you, you have to tell me!"

"Ok fine." I agreed.

"Well you know Jirou? I just we've been hanging out so much lately and I just feel like I'm falling in love with her..." She sighed sweetly. She then punched me in the shoulder. "Ok your turn!"

"Fine, It's Izuku midoriya I just feel like he has always cared and I just really like him." I sighed.

"Shouto don't tell me you're the one that caused his hanahaki?"

"I did. I feel terrible about it and I need to fix all of this, but I had to make it up to you first." She looked shocked as she looked me in the eyes.

"But if you're the one that caused it he should be better now right? That's good!" Her shockedness turned to a smile, but I felt my stomach twist. "What's wrong?"

"That's the thing he's not because I don't even know if I do love him. After everything that's happened to me I don't know what's love and what's not. Who do you trust in the end when all of it could just be people lying?" I felt hot tears well up in my eyes. "And even if I told him everything I felt and every moment I want to be with him will he even want me to be with him? After everything I've done to him? After everything I've done to everyone. All I seem to do is ruin lives and mess everything up by existing is it even worth it?" I felt like I finally said what I've been trying to carve out of my heart for so long. Everything hurt, but I'm glad it did.

"Shouto, no matter what you can't control what's happened to you and others, but you can change it now. Izuku loves you and love is funny. You can be mad at the person or even maybe hate them, but you can't change that you love them and you are worth it. I care about you and all of your classmates including Izuku care about you." She patted my back and it felt nice. I was going to be okay.

We sat there for a few minutes when I felt my phone buzz. I opened it to see a random number.

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Unknown Number- Todoroki Shouto this is Recovery Girl, your classmate Izuku Midoryia has gone in critical condition and I request that you make your way back to the school.

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I read the message and felt my hand shaking. He can't die, he can't go, not now.

"Momo, I need to go,I'll explain later... Thank you for everything." I said quickly before running towards the school.

My lungs were killing me, but I couldn't stop running. I just can't live with knowing I did this. I can't do this without Izuku, I just can't. I need to keep going.f

I looked at the front of the school and tried to catch my breath a little before running towards the nurse's office. I came in and I saw Izuku's mother sitting in the corner crying dn all might was there too. I felt my heart race, I immediately ran towards Izuku and sat next to him.

"Izuku! IZUKU!" I felt more hot tears come down my face as I shook him. "Please I'm sorry, don't do this."

My mind raced with the thoughts of us getting closer since all of this. Sitting together on his bathroom floor just holding each other, he felt so warm and I just wanted to protect him forever. Us in the park stargazing. Sitting together in this room talking and the kiss. His laughs, his smiles, his rambles. I wanted them to come back. I wanted them all. I can't lose him, I won't lose him. Please I- "Izuku please come back, I loe you.." I buried my face into his chest as tears kept coming. It's over. He's gone.

"I love you too." I heard a small voice, by a gentle hand petting my hair. I looked up to see a weak Izuku.

I looked at him and we hugged each other. Were together and that's all I needed. That's all I will ever need.

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Thank you to everyone who read my story and enjoyed it. I know it was short, but I just wanted to write a short love story. I'm working on something much longer right now and I'm excited to release it when its ready! I hope you all have a wonderful day!!