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"Come along dear." Mrs Weasley says after they had all confronted Harry's uncle and aunt so that his summer wouldn't be so horrible with them. "Where are we going?" I ask her confused, "we have to go to 12 Grimmauld place to gather your things and ensure that we haven't left anything important behind and then you can come home with us." I feel my breath catch in my throat I wasn't sure if I was ready to go back to Sirius's house knowing he'd never be there again. "Is something wrong?" Mrs Weasley asks stopping to check that Ik alright. "No nothings wrong, also it's very nice of you to offer your home up to me Mrs Weasley, I appreciate it immensely but my best friend Daphne and I have agreed to move in together so it's quite alright." She looks a bit disheartened by this.
"Oh that's lovely, have you found a place?" I shake my head as we continue walking, "we haven't looked yet, we just made the decision." She nods with a smile, "oh well you're welcome to stay with us until you find a place." I force a smile as my mother's words ring out in my mind.
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"How's paddy?" I ask not really to anyone in particular wondering what had happened to him, "I've been taking care of him." Remus tells me reassuringly making me grin at him, "thanks professor Lupin." He smiles softly as we arrive at the headquarters. "Everyone to your rooms to grab whatever you left." We all separate the ones who hadn't stayed over just checking the house in general.
I take a deep breath as I enter my room it looked the exact same as it had when I'd left it. I move around and pack my things up halting at my record player, this record hadn't been in use when I had left. I look through the records to see small bits of parchment on each of them holding Sirius's opinion on the songs, I smile as I read through what he had written. Then all the feelings I'd been trying to avoid hit me all at once and I fall to my knees as I sob thinking of Sirius and how I wished he wasn't dead. How I wished he were here and would pop out laughing at me as he assured me that he was fine, and wasn't going to leave for a long time. But he wasn't, he was dead and he was never going to come back, he was never going to tease me again, we were never going to have our late night tea talks, I'd never get to laugh over gossip with him and I hated it more than anything.
Sirius had really helped me from the moment he stepped into my life, he had become so important to me, he helped me really settle in, he made me feel like I had a family, the family I had always wanted. He acted the way I wished my father would've, he was the best and it wasn't fair that it was him who'd been taken from us, he'd suffered so much lost out on so much on his life only to have it ripped from him when he was finally free. He had deserved better.
"Whoa Lyra, Lyra what's wrong?" Fred asks running over to me as he enters my room, to find me a sobbing mess on the ground, he's dropped to his knees in front of me and has pulled me into his embrace. "Lyra, Lyra it's ok." He assures me as I continue to sob heavily into him, "it- it's not ok, he's gone Fred, he's gone and it hurts so bad." He runs his hands through my hair and tries to soothe me, "it hurts so bad." I whisper out making him sigh and hold me closer as he whispers words of reassurance to me.
"I need to go." I say suddenly as I quickly get up my mother's words replaying over and over in my mind. "Go? Go where?" He says trying to grab my hand, "I have to go." I repeat hurriedly shoving the last of my things away. "Where?" I don't respond as the tears run down my face I had to leave him, if I wanted to avoid losing anyone else I had to leave. "Jus-just stop for one second and tell me what's going on!" He says pulling me away from my bags to face him. "I have to go." I tell him again as he looks at me in concern. "Go for good?" I nod, feeling my heartbreak at the way his face falls.
"I-I have to Fred for your safety." He scoff and shakes his head, "what are you- that doesn't make any sense." He says in disbelief, "I want you to be safe and to be happy-" He continues looking at me in disbelief, "I'm happy with you!" I take in a breath. "You can be happy without me." I tell him making him look at me as though I've lost my mind, "Lyra what are you talking about! I don't want to be happy without you."
"I don't want you to get hurt." I tell him, "I'm not going to get hurt!" He says adamantly, "you don't know that!" I cry out, "nobody plans to get hurt Fred, nobody plans to leave." He takes a step closer to me. "I'm not going to leave." I shake my head and take a step back, "I am."
"Why?" He asks me his voice weak, "because I love you." He shakes his head tears in his eyes, "if you loved me you'd stay." I close my eyes, "it's because I love you that I have to leave." I tell him desperately, "Lyra you're not going anywhere." He says just as desperately. "Please Fred I can't have anything happen to you, I'm not safe, if you stay with me then you're at risk." He shakes his head tears falling, "no, that's not true."
"Why aren't you listening to me!" I cry out frustrated, "because you're being stupid!" He shouts back, "I'm not being stupid, your well-being is not stupid." He shakes his head as he steps forward and grabs me by the shoulders, "being with you is not going to put me at risk." He tries to assure me but the venomous whisper of my mother disagreed. "You are! She threatened you! She told me they were going to come for me, even if they had to go through my loved ones and I can't risk your life or anyone's else's."
"Who said all this?" He asks me worriedly as he watches me break down, "my mother, she said they were going to get me." He shakes his head and pulls me into him, "they won't, I'd never let them." I cry harder remembering how Sirius had promised the same. "That's the problem Fred, that's what puts you at risk." I tell him, "I don't care, I don't Lyra you're not leaving me, I won't let you." He says holding onto me tightly as though I were about to slip between his hands. "I don't want to." I admit, "then don't."
"It's selfish." I try and fight, "then be selfish! I don't care about anything, I'll fight anyone I don't care, but you're not leaving, stop trying to leave me please, I don't care about any risk it's all worth it to be with you, because I love you and when you love someone you don't leave them you stay and you fight together, you get through things together. You can't leave me not when I finally got you." I close my eyes as he leans his forehead on mine, "don't leave me." He begs through tears making me cry, "I'll never." I whisper not wanting to hurt him anymore.
