I crack another smile.
Cracking my heart even more.
Showing that I'm fine.
Hiding how broken I am.
Parents always said be strong.
Show no weakness infront of others.
Hide any emotion behind a smile.
I let the pain bottle up and overflow.
My friends said to be myself.
Show I care.
Show I feel emotion.
I didn't know how so I kept bottling up my pain.
I learned emotion was a burden.
I tried to abandon my feelings.
Learning how to live without emotion.
Never knowing that I kept bottling up my pain.
Parents say show no emotion.
Friends say to show feelings.
My parents made sure I hid them well.
Making sure to put up a mask for everyone.
How could I have known that all emotion was being hid.
I never knew how to show I cared.
My world was falling apart and inside I was scared.
But outside I looked fine.
Never showing emotion.
Never giving into others.
Listening to society.
And forcing myself to feel no emotion.
