Nine

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Fuck; written Jan 20, 2015

The ever echoing call of

"I fucked up"

Rings in my mind.

Sharp cold rings

Of thoughts

Close

In around

My neck slowly

I look up to where

Supposedly someone is watching

And loves me and can

Save me and yet

Say nothing.

I call out

Instead to those who

Are here and love

Me dearly for help since

They're bound

To know something about

Fucking up.

I fucked up.

I scream

I want blood

I want my own blood

I want violence to sate this primal hunger

I need a hug from someone close

I wish for her and pray for the end of the week.

I need love.

My thoughts are

Waves on the beach

Choppy and unsure but powerful

Sweeping me off my feet and tripping me

Washing over like

Cold reminders

I don't work.

The call rings true as

The laugh from them

Whether at me

Or with me

Everything hurts.

Everything hurts

Everything hurts

Everything hurts

Everything hurts,

No no no

No no no no

No no no no no.

I am

Fucking

Up as we

Speak someone

Please help

Me.

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