Onika POV
The Next Day
Waking up on top of Bey with her still inside of me is a blessing honestly. I don't know why i do it but this pregnancy Got me thinking crazy. Some times i be think that Bey want to cheat on me because i'm fat ass hell now . I've never been insecure about my body until now. Sometimes i think she wants to leave me for someone with a better body and not pregnant and i'm lazy. I'm probably going to get a job because i'm tired of doing nothing and Bey pays all the bills she give me whatever i want and I know it's hard for her dealing with my hormones and shit. I just want to be the best Beyoncé has every had . I see myself marrying her in the future. Even if we have hard times or if one of us mess up and cheat or anything i want us to go threw a storm together and be able to make it out alive. She's the best i've ever had and i can say that she's my first love.
I never loved someone so much that i'm obsessed and can't help but to think crazy even with my friends i be catching them eyeing her and i get jealous and have an attitude but she doesn't know why i have one.
Before We came to trinidad i was packing with my friends and i went into the bathroom to grab my things i heard one of them say how fine Bey is and how they would fuck her and shit and that hurts thinking you have real friends but they only your friend because of your girlfriend so I cut them off and BB still talk to them because i don't tell her nothing. I'm afraid she will think i'm to crazy and break up with me.
"Goodmorning baby" Bey said knocking me out of my thoughts .
"Goodmorning"I said quietly getting off of her and walking towards the dresser to get my stuff to take a shower and do my make up and hair.
"Hey baby come back what's wrong" Bey questioned me looking worried.
"Uhh nothing baby i just need a shower" I said looking elsewhere knowing damn well i want to tell her what's wrong but i'm scared.
"No tell me what's wrong"
"Bey im afraid you will leave me because i'm fat or i'm to Lazy and find someone better than me."I said sobbing covering my face at how embarrassed i am.
"Hey it's okay But i'll leave leave you and your not fat you just got more thicker. I don't wont no one else but you okay"! She said moving my hands and wiping my tears.
"Okay " I said with my head on her chest. We started in this position rocking back and forth for a while until Ming knocked one the door and told us breakfast will be ready in a minute.
Getting out the shower i wrapped myself up in my towel and went inside the closet to get dressed . After putting on my clothes i went to the room Solo was sleeping in to wake her up for breakfast. After getting her up i walked with her into the bathroom to run her a quick bath and helped her brushed her teeth. When we were done we meet the others already sitting at the table putting food on their plates. Sitting down i made me and solo plate and i ate quietly while the others was talking. I wasn't in the mood to take today especially because a whole bunch of my family members is coming and i hate them. Their so judgmental so i stopped talking to most of my cuzin and my grandma that lady is evil.
"Hey Nika Baby You Okay other there you haven't touched your food" She said pointing to my plate.
"Uhh yea i'm okay i just don't want to eat anything than throw it back up"I said sending her a small smile.
"Oh i forgot when we went to our checkup the doctor gave me these lollipop for the morning sickness" Beyoncé said handing me a lollipop
"Girl what the hell this gone do"I said looking at beyoncé stupidly.
"Babe it's a pregnancy lollipop pop that i got from the doctor but you was to busy being mad, i just explained it" She said
"Oh okay" I said than started to eat it.
