dear fred,
i'm sorry fred, i don't know why I said that, please forgive me, please, please, please. i hate myself, not you, I'm sorry I took out all my anger on you, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. this isn't your fault I know it's not and I'm sorry, please don't be mad at me. i love you fred, I miss you, I can't feel any other emotion but pain and sadness because of this. fred, I'm depressed. i can't get out of bed in the mornings, I can't brush my hair, or my teeth, or even put on clothes, fred I've been wearing your sweater mums made you for, and sweatpants for months. i can't help myself, it's not getting better, everyday is worse and worse, and worse.
fred, did it have to be you?
fred, my mental is at the edge of a cliff ready to jump off. fred, I'm ready to jump off, I want to see you again, I need to see you again. please come back to me fred, the only energy I have is getting a boost of happiness when I remember to write to you. come back to me, please.
x,
george.
